LOW LOW low low low

it's stupid.

walked alone at toa payoh and hungry.. and paranoid and bored. and stupid sales assistant who got no voice to speak but kept tailing me. fuck sia. stupid. yea.. just grab what i want there. haiya.. i'm not happy. i'm so alone. i feel urgh urgh urgh urgh am i depress? but why? urgh.. k la.. let go la masturah.

nose block

haha..

alyssa said. i like people who sore throat uh then the voice like you know. and i said.. like me right?? haha.. i know what you meant.. sexy right. hahahaha.. then she ignored me.. and continue to fold clothes. =(

don't you know it's very tough to pronounce N.. urgh.. but i hope my voice remain like this.. SEXAY. ahahahaha.

i went out with SU.. to watch bride wars. wow.. it's a nice show lar. but we got the stupid seat ever. i hate VIVO. love cathay. hehe.. and su kept saying i'm a lesbian coz i kept on looking at girls. but then you know there's no really a good looking guy to wow at.. and he clears his throat and i saidya la.. you uh handsome. hehe.

i made a mistake just now. =( suddenly pop out the question,why we nvr call each other B?then he said doesn't match us.. and i oh.. then burp out bout my ex.. how stupid i could be.. hais

=( i am hungry & su is on diet so, he don't want eat at night. =(

suhairi

he's the one who talked so much just now. hahs. and he realised it. he said wah.. i bebual bynk eh. means i talked so much uh.. all i could said is. ya.hahas.

he's the one who teached me to kuti the nyamuk. ahahas.

love him.

yay.. meet him again later 230pm to shopping. i miss holding your hand.

goodnight syg.

random wish

took out the staff note book. and happily SY drew our faces and all.. and so i wrote my wish to them.

Qong Qi fa cai
Hong Paw nai lai

and they laugh like shit. coz i spelt it all wrongly. it was funny. hehe.. i love lesbian acts with you. HORNY

xoxo

oh sick

i am sick.. 2days at home. boredom. i don't wish to go out coz many of the shops are close. but meeting su later at night. (= love him. accompany tostudy.

oh and listening to all PINK songs. just feel like it.

when i was sec 4 . just broke up with 1mth relationship. but i got a crush for him forlike 1year plus sia.. he is totally my type. cute. tall. big manly(= sweet. i felt so happy that for once he noticed me. hehe..so yea 1mth only. hahahs. then i was really depressed. i only listening to avril songs. and i cried like shit sia.. haiya. so much for loving him too much. after him there is this one guy also.. but i really am not interested with hi m. but i lead him on. =( and he bought me a mp3 and a rose. a birthday card for my birthday. and we are not in a relationship sia. haiya.. but the mp3 was stolen.. ya.. really are not meant to be. hehe

i learnt my lesson.

-not to go steady with someone that has just broke up
-don't love someone too much
-don't read too much of it/don't think too much

hahs

k la

im so bored. =(

killing me

i am so so bored now. hais..

so, met su ytd night. (= get a grab at mac. (= after that just lepak. (=

thank you.

realization

15th month. ahahs. pon boleh lupe seh..

i wanna meet him. =( sucks that he has to work. and me? slacking at home. bored

oh, toe. fcukingpain.. tu uh .. lesson learnt. when crossing the road please eh tgk bawah jgk.. tkmo tgk left right je. haiye. da aku limping. beh bangla pon boleh ketawe kan aku.. cfm the pharmacist at watson pon ketawe kan aku.. what hppn? sial la aku pon tak tau seh.. suddenly, aku knock on sth?? but i don't know what thing it is. urgh!! and bangla looked at me. bodoh. i thought it was just normal. then eew.. got blood. and the pharmasist said just put the antiseptic cream first. but supposingly have to wash the dirty blood first right?? hmm..but then i just put uh.. then when i got to work.. changed to my stupid uniform and went to the toilet and wash it. hahs. haiya. pakai slipper when serving customer.. tak senonoh langsung.\\

k la.. that's all that i want to complain about. ehhe.

iwishhewillaskmeout.

xoxo

10 things you don't know about me

i got tagged by pretty&slender Isyah. (=

1.i hate my mum. =( & i don't like living here. i wish i'm living alone now with su. i wish they will be better. i really am i donno i'm upset with them. hmm.. now you know.

2.i am a neat freak actually. i get frustrated and talk to myself angrily if what shit are not suppose to be there.. hahas. and i always iron my clothes.

3.i am a cry baby. if i cry i can't stop coz i will always recall some shits. =( but i can hide my feelings easily.

4.i don't save my money. =( a very disappointing problem.

5.i believe if i eat after 9pm i will get FAT. ya. FAT already.

6.i like to see ladies more than guys. hahas. lesbo.and got really shy when talking sometimes i start to stutter abit. hahahas. thick tongue

7.i wish i will get married and live happily in my own house. a very high storey at membina court. 5 years later. and very rich. ahas

8.in secondary sch. back then.. always got blood stain on my skirt. so, me and fren always find that as an excuse to skip class. hehe. and i always skip sch i donno why.=( i was third in class in sec1. but after that donno why mystudies really drop super drop la. nobody knows i have a problem.

9.hmm.. i don't eat chilli, sambal.. yeah. and allergic to crab and shrimp.

10. i stop wetting my bed when i am 6-7yrs old. hahas.

i would like to see


1sery 2rizal 3ary 4eqin 5jana 6fyeza 7filzah 8muhaimin 9mizam 10mai

do this

thinking of you

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center

first for 14months

haahs. what we wore.. the first time nak dkat same. hahas. but tak same uh.. coz kental seh. ahha.. from what i thi nk.. oh.. it was coincidence. (=

xoxox

5year later?

i wanna jump time to 5years later.. maybe i got married and own a house. su asked what if it is not me. will you stay there or come back? so, i said that's my fate.. but i will always rmbr you.. then su said, hmm.. aww.. i rather nt knw the future.. coz i knw you are here with me.. love you.

i love you su.

met su. (= we were so hungry.. hah. ate at HAJI KARIM then off to thomson to give sam his cashcard back. after that. went to Plaza Singapura to pay Meow Ling money for Bdae Present. hahas. walked to the cathay after that. i really thought bride wars open yesterday.. confident . hahas.. then we just lepak outside the cathay lor. no idea of where to go next. he said nak lepak kat mount faber. and there sheepish smile smile me. hahas. but we never go there.. coz all i want is to watch movie. hmm.. think think think wondering. beh suddenly i feel like crying but i didn't coz su was there for me. hehe.. and i know uh.. mood swings sucks to the core. family. work. money. all i want is to be with him. and i feel that my mum is stalking me. hahahs. whatever la.

we watched PUNISHER. hahas.

it's M18. bloody gore sia. but one of the jahat guys is so cute. hehehe.. i like him.

the 2nd frm the left of course. (= hehehehe.

so after that, we wanted to go mount faber. but got lost. haha.. confident lagi. haiya. i must not be confident sia. buat salah aje. so, we very hungry again went to AMK to eat macs. cravings. hehe.

haha. and someone stole su visor. stupid people. haiya.

now, i really in dilemma.. should i get this?

coz a very kind soul said she can get her fren which is a stewardess to get it for me.. 120bucks only. su said.. wah wah wah.. bynk nye duit. you know su.. girls can't get enough of it. hahas.

xoxo

sth to miss about

i miss my then hairstyle. =(

this was last year on september. hehe. i love snow white.

oh i am very bored.

and i'm thinking of what should i wear later to meet su. haiya..

what a tall man.

he walked very fast. couldn't catch up. my boyfriend said tall women are alien. models are all alien. -_- then aku tinggi sikit dari die seh. then aku alien. =( hahahas.

walking walking then i saw familiar bike. familiar only. then thought to myself. like kambing bike sia. then walked walked walked. OMG!! kambing. fat fat kambing walking. he said, da gemuk eh. then i said. look who's talking. hahahs.

you know the only exercise i got is walking up the hill everytime to work except on sunday. these days it's likesomehow i love the sun. i will be smiling to my ownself sometimes. ya. i;m crazy. last 2years, i kept like thinking fair is pretty. but now? i don't care simply coz su love me and always remind me that i'm cute and beautiful. aww.. i love him so much. and i love myself. you should too people. (=

ok lar.
i just did shifting at work. so satisfying. did sweat a little. hard work sia. hope boss will like it
& i really hate work politics. =(

xoxo
meeting su tmr. hehe

gold brown

i donno if i should highlight.. the aunty told me 60bucks only if i come again to her. suppose to be today the mood to highlight. then. really ponder about it for a day.. smsing su whether shld i?. asking SY and ALYSSA. haiya.. then at last i thought hmmm.. to buy the color just color it at home.. i bought it.. and very excited.. and it's the first time that i use this brand hoyu. i always use revlon strawberry blonde. hehe..

went home.. mai's fren all at the living room. i was carrying 2big bags. haiya. and really really excited.. i read the instructions carefully.. and did all the steps. what to say. i am the follow the rules type. hahas. then after awhile. like WTF. my scalp was like burning and i rush to the toilet and rinse it off. =( my hair color not even. and i donno what to do it about it. but luckily nth happens.

i went to body shop again on my lunch break with SY. hahahs. i spent my money again. hahas. haiya. and i also bought this bag. Le Coq Sportif. From 80bucks to 24bucks. hehe. suke aku.

while working.. haha.. they all make fun of this actress name shun chun mei?? i;m not sure. coz i was making the pose everytime to cover my nehneh. yeah. SY very violent. she smacked my face. =( violent people.

xoxo
miss su so much =(

PRINCESS

hehe.. iam really happy today.. hehe..

i spent ard 60bucks at BODY SHOP. and i am really satisfied. i feel so fresh now. i smell so good. hehe. (=

xoxo

i love su
i miss su too and frens

i was just randomly tgk gmbr gmbr kwn. then i was like hmm.. gosh. i really miss them. like everyone of them. but you know people change. come and go. but the trueone stays. and aku mcm kdg2 segan nak ajak krg kelua. like sometimes kalau kelua pon..mcm what do i have to say next? like.. that awkward silences.yeah... if berbual kat telefonpon mcm.. hmm.. i donno. i would justlaugh itoff.. but i donno.
k. nasib. she won;t read my blog. ahahahahaha.

BYE

boring

i wanna go botanic garden.
i wanna go henderson waves.

with boyfriend.

so, we could be romantic romantic. hahahahahhas.

daydreaming.

telepathy

i was sitting behind mai.. looking at her watching this taiwan drama on the lappy. hmm.. i was so bored. it was only 12 noon.. thinking of my boyfriend. daydreaming waiting for him to msg me.. and suddenly my heart was like ok.. just msged huda. so, i msged her. and after awhile she called me. she said she is really sick.. and shewas like crying. i really dont know what to do. i felt useless at that point of time. =( i called SU. but no answer. but he called me back. i told him about huda sickness. she can't sleep for 4days. shocking ryte?? yeah.. and you know what SU said. asked her to masturbate. hahahaha. crazy.

but anyways, i straight away shower. and went to toapayoh. hehe.. (= to get her sth. i bought her the body shop deep sleep. i hope it works. lepak kat ruma die till ezan dtg.. then i got really restless. so, iwent home. i really hope she get some sleep. =(

i can't wait to meet su. i miss him. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGSHUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS

laterpeople

flaws and all

Flaws And All - Beyonc?

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

Don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you

feel so light.

i don't know where to start..? hmm.. beginning to end? arh..

so, ytd got a date with su. (= find his pants or jeans?? walk walk.. he says that if girl shops always got alot of comment.. and like to go round and round.. hmm.. what about him? hahas.. maybe bcoz guy seldom shop that's why uh. hmm.. i donno? but i really think we're all the same.

after that, my treat to eat at PIZZA HUT. blood hungry. ordered alot i guess.. can't finish it

=( wasted.

and we watched TRANSPORTER 3.

he said that mcm merepek.. means nonsense.. coz i nvr watch the 1st and 2nd.. i really donno wht to expect. virgin. but i seriously love it. coz the fighting like woah! seriously.. and you know what?. recently i have been watching action pack movie je.. aiya.. but i like fighting scene. uuh.. sexy. horny bitch haha.

after much consideration.. hehe.. we bowl at Marina Square. i prefer Kallang Leisure. more Big. he owe me a ring. ahahaha. coz i won!!!!!!!! yay. hahs. (= i love bowling sia. my new hobby. after bowling we play pool. he really fierce sia teaching me. i don't like already uh.

he very fierce. =( hahs.

met rizal at haji karim.. then saw Sam and Gf. and fren. hahas.. but we moved liao. smoked for awhile and headed to home.

oh, lets ton again syg.

love you

su

i love you su ok.
love su lovesu love su love su love su love su

muacks muacks

and i miss you too

My new sweet baby - cintaku!

What do you think about my little new baby cintaku?
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our cinta

cute or not?? hehe..

loves

appreciation

the meaning is you don't appreciate it. =( super upset ytd and the wasn't meant to be part. -_- haha.. sery called me at the super right moment. like when i just finish reading it. like seriously. so i picked up the call and cry my eyes off. haha.. yea. cry baby. but it was just friday that i asked kambing that why now right i can't cry for su. and he said maybe you guys are long relationship alrd la. then i was like oh ok. yay.. so, i cried ytd. yea.. super upset.

so, i bought him a wallet. kekeke.. i thought i wanted to meet the sister but change my mind to pass it directly. then can talk about it more lor. yea. met him under his blk. then ate at JIHAHA. haha.. and lepak till 4am. when reached my hse. the sky is so blue. he said wah. da mcm pkol 7pagi. then i just said yea. haha..

k la.
i'm tired.
xoxo

kambing (=

well, at last.. got to meet this man. (= haha.. his face. hahas. we were so hungry la. but i only ate this..

bcoz later i have to meet suhairi to eat. but hahas. i never eat coz the pizza made me full. he's mad of coz.this swensen on me.. 2nd time i treated him. hehe.. he don't wanna cap so he wanted me to treat him. yea.. the crayfush mcm sedap eh kambing.. can see it through your face eating. hehe..

we went town.. i was at town the whole day.ahahas. anyways, i've got a new slippers. coz kambing said my slipper kental. =( yea. and i know. mcm very minah.. and it's so pinkish. he also said my hair color is so minah. urgh.. yea.. i also know that.. so, i wanna highlight next month.. like the firefligth girl. (= suke aku. we walked ard town.. to find SU his wallet. but seme nye tak lawa. =( i've found one though at topman.. but i didnot buy it.. coz i scared SU bought it at queensway. hehe.. and kambing suggest to bring him there and see. but when i meet su.. he said he don't want.

then me and kambing seperated ways.. gave him a hug. coz we donno when thenext time we will meet. oh hell yeah.. he got a GF already. happy for him. at last.

met su with sam at the cathay. he is i donno sometimes. =( he bought me a wallet. hmm.. thnaks anw.

at a turkish rest at far east. tak sedap la sgnt. but ok lor. hahas..

we watched this movie..

urgh.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont uds???. but the fighting scene all so gore.

k xoxo

wanna talk to sexy boy

pics

waiting for kambing to pick me up.

see how bored i am now

and i;m hungry. =(

and i got a surprise for you baby. hehe

her hair

she's from the band, fireflight. yea. the song from previous post. i love her hair. =( but too bad.. my job wont allow that hair though. and i'm stupid. i donno what's my color is. i wish it's blond. coz blond have more fun right?

xoxo

rubber.? check.

i only got one pic sery. =[

so met SERY today. (= happy.
hahas.. waited for her quiet a long time.. but who cares. she's getting better. (= and that is what i wanted to hear. we ate at KFC. and we just talked alot. hmm.. we wore same color shirt. feeling green today huh.. heheh.. anyways, been fun. and suhairi is action. i seriously thought daiso at level 3.. aiye. whatever la.

a little feud her and there but ... still love you. well, sometimes you are damn irritating.

hmm.. my BF havent bought me the wallet. =( and he said i dont care about him coz i watched COLLEGE with SERY. he wanted to watch it with me. sorry.. it happens alot of time. i donno. but i cant help it. ya. maybe deep inside i'm ignorant about this feeling of watching movie. hmm.. if i also i would be mad too.. but i really donno you wanna watch it. coz the movie is abit lame. aiye. i feel guilty everytime this happen. boo..

he did sth with his bike. putting racing footrest. and i donno what is it call thing. yeah.. when he asked me. like nice or not.. it still looks the same to me. and i miss the old footrest already. boo..

aiya.

i like this song.



xoox

IPOD

i thought my ipod hilang.. i was really sad coz it's a gift from kambing. boo boo.. told su, he said checkunder the bed. then i searched ard my bed.. and there you go. my ipod was under my pillow. hahas. yay.. (= lucky. i love my ipod. (=

after a few days of silent treatment with her.. coz of misunderstanding of i tot u angry with me.. hahas.. and i really tot she was angry with me.. but you know what.. we are actually not angry with each other. hahas. stupid. we're good now. (=



ok lar. tmr gonna meet sery. (= and BFafter that. he bought me a wallet. haha.. but funny. coz he lost his wallet then buy for me a wallet. i need to buy him a wallet next month.

hmm..

xoxo

free one game. (=

su's planned was to meet at 830am. hahas. i actually woke up at 7am.. but i slept back coz i thought it's way too early. hehe.. so, woke up at 815am. woke him up. hahas.. and i had a really strange dream. and he said maybe you are a lesbian. ehehe.

so, he waited for me at the carpark. (= my father passed us. while, su doing the p-plate thingy. my father asked masih L masih L... hahas. then my BF said 3months already. then my dad said.. be careful on the road. hehe.. and he asked why your dad so happy to see me. hahhahah. my replied was. my dad is a friendly man. (=

so, went to POSB. the lady so nice. he got the replacement card for free. if not deduct 5bucks. it was 945am.. but still a long queue.

so we ate at KFC for breakfast.ordered americanfor me ori for him. i still prefer MCD over KFC. except that i really like the honey biscuit. his china fren KFC rider was funny i think. he said your GF very good. hmm.. ahahs. so, sat at the sideway. ahaha. i know. waiting for him. then we discussed about gg where next? so we watched bedtime stories at 1250hrs.

the movie .. well, nice to watch. i mean. ok for me. got this kid laugh so loud sia. so high i think.. hehe. i giveit 3pops means that you don't watch also can uh.. but nice to watch. to waste time.

so, after that... went to kallang leisure park to play bowling. hehe.. we played 2 games at first. it was 1-1. so we play another game. guess what.. i won. and another kind soul also let us play his game. coz his children want to go home. haha.. we really lucky hor. got alot of kind souls. hehe. i loveto bowl man. (=

haha.. half of his face coz he malu malu kucing.

so, we really am sleepy so, we slept at some place.

and guess what.. ate my fried kway teow at vivo. and i thought i wanna go DAISO to buy him something. but he complained he's tired. want to go home. and said to go shopping on friday with my friend. =( oh, we went to this shop.. called national geographic. it;s more like a museum than a shop. i donno. hmm.. hehe..

xoxo

vomit.

nothing much to say..
but am meeting su tmr. yay. play bowling. ahhas.. but have to wake up early in the morning.. grr.. hehe.. but anything for you lar. like rhyme sia. hehe

and how.? now, my shoulder and neck is really annoying me.. i need a massage from truly you.. and my.. i have pimple breakouts.. i feel real horrible. =( my pimple is very itchy.. argh!! but i don;t dare to touch it. hahas. so, have to persevere. hahs. lame sia mas.

&i'm thinking whether to put my photos at friendster like as an album or wht.. oh, wondering why i have only have 0ne photo of su which is blur some more.. bcoz.. he said.. my pics in your friendster sucks big timE!! iM so sad. but nvrm la.. no one seems to care.. can go his friendster see his cute face.

k lar. i want bloghopping. hehe. this guy uh asked me.. why do you have blog? then i said i wanna tell people what i do. hahahs.. i was kidding of coz.. and then he said.. then you no privacy uh. then i said yeah.

like what.. i don't put ALL MY DEEP DARK SECRETS WHAT. haha.. and the convo started when he kpo see me typing. and he said.. wah you type so fast uh.!! like wtf. average only.

xoxo

miss

i miss you so bad.

horoscope.

Is your life lacking romance right now? If you want more roses, wine, and poetry from your special someone, then you need to give them more wine, roses and poetry -- show them what you expect of them with your actions, it's as simple as that. They're smart -- they will take the hint and then give you what you are asking for. But if you are currently single, show the universe what you deserve in a partner by being good to yourself. Plan a spa day or take a long nap.

yea.. i want more roses, wine, and poetry my love. hehe

xoxo

wah.. i wanna change job. =( it sucks

my left eyelid keep twitching

but i don't wanna sleep. boo

i just wanna do this thing. hehe

for all the bad habits
*i don't wanna be a weird eater
*i try not to bite my nails or shake my legs when i'm nervous
*i'm gonna eat proper food. a little bit on fast food =(
*i want to be stylish
*i want buy alot of eyeshadows
*i want a diamond ring. HAHAHAHAHAHS. tak la. at least a ring on my finger.(hinting.
*earn more. do more OT
*stand up for myself and my love ones
*to meet kambing, sery . the rest? if you really make the effort kay.. oh, and ary and fala. and afiqa. they really make the effort. (=
*go GENTING HIGHLAND.!
*study maybe. (=
*and to convince my family.. that all the stupid stuffs must be gone!! i hate my cramp house. fuck it.

xoxo

eh, i'm not too late ryte? hehe

so in love with

i watched that just now. (= it's super nice KUNG FU movie to watch kay. give at least 4popcorns. it made me tear abit coz of the wife. and it's abit funny too.. and wah... the fighting uh.. so shiok to watch.. and su keeps doing the fist thingy. haha.. he just can't let it go. hahas. but the ending is a little bit ... but the thing is.. the whole movie is super great to watch. (=

i finished at 2pm. thought of visiting sery.. but thatgerl uh.. still went for sch.. hais.. stubborn don't you think?? hmm.. niwaes.. then i just meet su lor.. i treated him to the movie. eheh.. i love to waste my money on him. (=

so ate at banquet raffles first.. was stuck between fried kway teow and fishball noodle. so, i made a decision by asking su to pick nos. from 1 to 10. hahas. so.. i ate fishball noodle.. hmm.. i don;t like.. and su bought carrot cake.. bloody hell.. the carrot cake.. super spicy. i hate it. it's not so fun eating over there.. oh, yeah.. when eating.. he said he forgot to take his cashcard.. he's so forgetful. so, we just rush off to the car park. luckily, no one stole it. coz he just top up.

then off we went to the cathay and watched IP man. hehe.. suker.

i was super hungry.. and i want my fried kway teow.. and he was late to play soccer. uh.. so i said eat at banquet amk lor.. then i went home alone.. but he insisted to send me home.. so after eating.. he went home for awhile.. and i did my shopping at central then meet him at jubilee. haha.. watched the guys play soccer again.. they are alwaysfunnny. (=

xoxo

listening to

A Dustland Fairytale - The Killers

20 09

well, looks like i'm falling deeper and deeper and wanting to be with you always. omg. i can be crazy if it goes on like this. i'm so clingy. hahas. =( but sad face.

hmm..

1st day of the new year. (= been great. i love ytd. the best celebration with the closest and love ones.

oh, i hug my youngest sister.. and she cried. ahhahahas. up till now. i donno why she cried. =( having her sure spice up the family a bit.. but somehow she can be a little bit hard to handle.. but i love her. (= care for her alot. i care for them alot. but guess. with me hardly at home last year.. hmm.. i've not been a great daughter and sister. i'm like an outkast in the family. oh wells, i hope mai is not reading this entry.. wah,.. i regretted telling her my blog.. urgh.. frustrated. i have not been in alot of family gathering this year.. yeah.. every dinner i'm not there.. coz im told at the last minute. =( my family is the last minute type. hahas.. yeah. me too. k la..

take care people.
xoxo