sexy

sy did this for me.. woot..

anyway,

i have been living in a small neightbourhood like 19years liao.. going to wlds always freak me out. bcoz wa liao.. alot of people. i scared. but because of you.. i will conquer my fear. hehe

xoxo

loves su

more:short update

i am gonna meet su later. fala msged me late. sorry. i am so gonna tell suhairi the big news later. our fucking love love band are coming to SG. i cnnt believe it. but it's only a rumor. so sexcited now. hehe. love flowers love flowers. hehe..

bleah

i bought something online for the first time. someone told me.. i buy things for my bf only but nvr buy anything for myself. =P there i bought sth liao alyssa. haha.. a bandage skirt. hope it reach here soon. can't wait to wear. oh, my bf a bit pissed off i guess when i said i bought a bandage skirt. 4 more days counting for the skirt. lao aku tak muat.. aku kasi adik aku lor =(

i gave my sis a perfume for her prezie. hahahas. nice.

loves su alot alot

bloody random entry

i want to have my own psp.. but su was like saying that he don't like people who have psp like always play games only. =( i cnnt have a pink psp slim. =(

love

suhai tot that i don't love him anymore coz i don't post i love you anymore. ok. here's the i love you.

love you love. xoxo

hmm..

i met him just now again.. the feet is ok now.. not that swollen like yesterday. tmr gonna change the dressing and all. i tot i cud accompany him.. but he said no need la. i am working anyway. hehe. wednesday then off.. not sure if fala get my msg or not.. been 2days.. haiya. i donno. i just got this feeling of. i forget my friends.? no need to elaborate. hmm.. my world is su.

i just rarely msg you guys. but you know i am your friends. true friends stay forever in the heart

xoxo
love su

mall cop

su got into an accident with a car that hit him.. and he skidded under the lorry. terrifying. hais. i feel so shitty and useless that i can't be with him. was working. tmr too. haiya. he just moved to wlds just now. so, tmr long train ride to wlds. feel so =(

can't wait to meet him tmr to syg syg him. ahas.

k la.

hope he's alright.

actually today he suppose to play soccer at night. 11pm. but obviously i don't let him. did i curse him? omg.. k no. i think too much.

xoxo

anyway, on a brighter note.. yesterday we watched mall cop. it was happy madison productions. so, it's funny! aha.. i like. 3.5 of 5 . (= and before that we ate at hawker centre amk. hmm.. su was craving to have a malay food coz always eat fast food restaurants.. yea.. he work at KFC almost everyday. hahas. and went to change the bike engine oil and all that. the mechanic said need to change the rim.. and alot i guess.. expensive. sometimes he always talk about his bike to me.. but really i know ntg.. kambing too.. he talked halfway and he said why i tell you.. like you know. haiya. GUYS.

and i just know.. curry puff is potato inside. -_-

after that we went to marina barrage. hehehehehhehe.. the place was i guess. ok? fun water everywhere. ahhahahs. i wanted to go to the roof top.. but the guy lazy. haiya

k la. good night.
i hopeyou sleep well. :-*

off day

well, i am not going to stay home today.. su is such a (blank).. coz he actually work today but he asked for an off day. so, we could go out. hahas. after a petty argument again last night.. donno how much i was hurt.. not that really heartbroken though.. i am just confuse actually.? whether this gonna be like im sorry i am mad i said things that i didn't mean.. yeahh.. or maybe this is the end.. im so confuse really.

he said
u sucks i hate u.

i said
wah.. i am sorry that i sucks.

so... my mind was like wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah wah the first time a guy saying he hate me. so sad. but we are ok. hahah.. and i said mad people says mad things.

last week we also had a petty argument. i said fuck you. i mean wth sia?? and he scolded me back. wah.. seriously. hahas. but that was really hurt. feels so depressed the next day.. but we are ok. hahas.

k la.. we wanna watch mall cop later. eheh..

=(

at home now.
short meeting with him just now. ate at popeye. hmm.. coz i miss the biscuit but they disappoint me.=( so lethargic now. haiya.

then after that we find the marina barrage.. but k. was lost. but i know where already now. hehe. we did not go there though coz he need to work. urgh.
tmr i off. stay home.

k la.. suddenly feel so irritated.

bye hot momma

oh today is my sis bdae. got to wait for ya present.

P.s:wah.. i got alot of perfumes now. psycho perfume saler

moremore:

wah.. i need to grow up. why must i be a selfish gf. why must i think he always have to work.. blahblah.. i feel so bleah. =( the fact that he said talk to the supervisor to get off or sth. give me hope. i really hate hoping for nth that won't happen.. i am so upset now. i am so selfish. i am so childish. i am so clingy. i am really bored with a very angry face now. this sucks. i suck

much much love

last night we meet

happy baby

gtg to work

hope today sales is better..and i want to get impulsive cust. hahaha.. whatever i recommend pls buy ok. (= love cust like this. hehehe

xoxo

your life

i don't like it when you play soccer lepak or what thing at the middle of the night

DONE

wipe the mannequin with utmost feelings

i love to work so that i could tone my arm. (= su said my bicep so hard uh. haha.

more*

i miss him
i wish i could meet him later so i could hug him and kiss him. =( oh man. wed is so long syg. being the most impatient person on the mother earth. i can't wait. hahas.

big let down

we have come into a conclusion??.

that kambing is a BIG PUSSY

hope he read this.. just for fun KAMBING!

my face has no answers

been really stress nowadys. hmm.. whatever. don't think too much mas. (=

ytd met su after work at 6. haha.. thought of gg to lido cineplex to watch bloody valentine. but su was like mane seh mane nak park? & i checked again and eh.. cathay on ade.. and i told him.. i wanna watch at lido coz got BK. he wanted to eat BK. and he said Plaza Sing also got BK. seriously.. never think of Plaza Sing. hahas. k.. we watched at Cathay.. the tix was super expensive. and he thought it was only $13for 2.. so confident.

Bloody Valentine was ok for me i guess. but i missed one part as i went to the toilet. so cold. regretted wear dress for yesterday. it's not really that scary or tht violent. hmm.. maybe i expected too much for the movie.. expected more naked woman or man.. coz it is M18 you see.. hahas. but 1 aje. =( hahahahas. k la.

so, was angry a SU for awhile i donno why. haiya. sometimes hmm.. i just don't uds. was super mad. hahahs. my face can show i was really mad.. for the first time i guess. ya. whatever. moved on.

he brought me to this place.. at first it was scary. but aftr that it was really kind of calming and everything nice. we went to lower pierce resv. we sat there like quite a long time. very long. hahas. ya. donno why. we always say nak lepak? hahahs. we chatted about alot of stuffs. family roots. hahas. he got abit of chinese gg on. but humble uh don't wanna tell people. mata sepet.

after that we went to devil's bend. haha. so scary shit tell you. haiya. ini tempat die slalu g with his KFC friends. =( i think that place is full of Cik pons. trees everywhere.

that was my scary day with su yesterday

and weird at ard 3am.. we was sudddenly awake. and i was thnking of him. and he msged me. aww. so weird. i love him

die bitch die

i am so bored

su like my poem i did for SY not long ago.

sy is a like sea
sometimes up
sometimes down
sometimes tsunami

showed that to SY and she said,"KANASAI!"
HEHEHEEHE

damn. only 3 staffs working tmr. me full. sy morning. aly afternoon. bgs la. hais. they gonna quit. donno if i should be happy or sad. hmm.. anyways.

sweet&sour

i am broke. =(

suhairi met me just now to have lunch and then sent me home. haha.. i had sweet and sour chicken with rice at marina food court. but he only ate ice kachang. coz got no money. =( seriously tak sedapp la. but i finished it. coz was really hungry aiya.

i miss him already.

a reminder for me:not to tell suhairi.. what i wanna buy and all. =( waste my money,he said. think properly when buying. coz i think he cnnt take my complaints anymore about shoe. hahahahas. shoes aku bkn nye bynk seh. haiya.

xoxo

cock-roachers

eh, da pukol 10pm? hahaha.. 3hours i think doing nth on mai's pink lappy.. i thought she's a bimbo to choose pink. it was my dad choice actually. HAHAH
xoxo

i need attention

impt people bdaeS:
mai - 25th Mar
baba - 31th Mar
Su's adek - 6th Apr

i know already what to get for them except my dad.. da tue tk payah la. bdae aku pon tak buat apape. wah. anak derhaka.

due photos.

we stepped inside to waste time.. and we ended up.. daydreaming about our future. hahas

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have you ever feel that you're left out? or it's like first day at sch or job? where you have no friends to talk too.

i feel it. although i work for like 6-7months already. just that my outlet are all chinese.. so, they tend to group together and talk talk talk non stop.. i feel so sad. =( Seriously. i hate it. but it's a stupid reason to quit. hais. whenever i have attitude or what.. they will surely group together and gossip. it's common la to be like that. haiya. the thing is.. i know abit of mandarin lor. haiya. sometimes aiya.. i really donno what to say la.. it's just sad. i want to transfer outlet seh....!!!! everytime there is reshufflement.. i always pray that i will get trf haha.. but NO! dissapointing result. =(

i miss su

and yea

byebye

i have a cute thing on my hand

i have been wanting to upload my pics but haiya.

last thursday i went out with huda. i really want to post our pics sia. haiya. it was really fun gg out with her. i love gg out with her and shop and talkcrap. hehe. and long walks. yeah. miss her already.

we met at city hallard 5pm. ate my tandoori chicken.. first time i got to finish it without su's help. oh.. su was not there anyway. hehe. and then we walked ard. went inside fourskin. hehe.. alot of cuteboys. and we talked about it non stop. uh you know.. like school girls. heahahha.

we went to The Body Shop Warehouse Sales.. bought quiet alot of stuffs.. hehe.. & bought sth for someone. (= hope she nvr buy that thing that i bought. hahas. i know i really have no money.. but i can't help it to shop.. urgh.. then to plaza sing. to watch watchmen. seriously.. huda cannot shut up sia. ahahaha. i also don't uds the story. just that what i know is Mr Manhattan cock is long. & Ms Jupiter?? is sexy. (= hehe. so, went home after that. for old time sake.. we sat at the bus stop. hahas.

me & huda.. we've been friends for like donno. since we're 4years old. coz our mothers are like inseparable. yea. till now. love her. care for her. be there for whenever whatever babe k. hugs

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Friday.. me&su had a petty arguments last night thursday. and yea. woke up in the morning.. feeling really sad.. reach my workplace.. and cried. cry baby sia aku. luckily got alyssa. she's good in pacifyingme. and saying encouraging words. love her. but end up. took half day leave. thought of going to the library.. but met kambing at tiong bahru.

i called him. and he said later he called back. & so.. i just walked from Zion Rd.. to Liang court. and he was like take cab back. haha. ya lor. i thought i wanna sit at masukesu place. that is where me&su confesses. haha. so emotional.

yea.. then kambing coaxed me to msg su. so, i did.. & later at night me&su met. hehe.

wah.. i really feel glad that we are ok now. as i can't live without him. =(

xoxo

no more butterfly

k i shutt myself for body shop. whatever uh.

su is having a hard time now. coz he couldn't find my helmet. =(

and i just deleted my friendster account. now everyone got a facebook.. even my ASM sia.pester me to make one. almost all staffs at coldwear got a facebook. haa. like WTF. but im not gonna make one. coz at friendster i never make any new friends since i become steady with su.. and someone creep me out. this guy., we used to talked and all/ back 2years. before go steady with su. always look at my profile. i donno leh him. fcuk you. you perasaan gemuk ggatal guy whose fiancee so control freak.

sales

I HOPE HUDA GO OUT WITH ME TODAY. COZ THE BODY SHOP ARE HAVING SALES. BUT I DON'T have MONEY.

I AM SO SAD. =(

but nevermind uh but still ms sad face

it's only natural

Bones - The Killers

i wanna feel your skin.

i kept going to jana's blog just to listen the song.. so nice. i hope she tells me the song. haha.

and now dilemma.
buy su's jeans ornt.
buy black or brown belt?
i have no money. fcuk you uh

haha.. thnk too much
have to lend my money to him. hope i rmbr haiya

so ytd. i am a good girlfriend. that guy body so hot. but stillgo to work. but yea he need. my hug. hmm.. so kesian.

i went to amk after i end work at 10pm. reached there ard 1040pm. city hall really were so packed sia. so, yea. went cheers bought myself bluberry tea and him evian water. though of buyin his fave chocs. but it was not there. gahh.. so yeah lor. i bought evian coz i was told by him that his house got no plain water.. then everytime bingit kat aku. k aku bedek part bingit. hehe.. so waited for him.. and he now super dark sia. and hug him.. so, i very good hor.. go amk just hug him.. then go home. hehe.. if he moved to wlds must think twice about going there just to hug then go home. =( hais

& i still rmbr what his friend said, new house new friend new gf. so sad. hate him. baru last year meminta maaf dan ampun. =(

oh shit, i just rmbr.. donno mai got take my payslip ornt.. she's introuble =( lately. she's busying filling up theform.. then mendaki some more.. and my sister confident said confirm cnnt get coz i'm working and my dad too.. but who knows right. coz su said when he also enroll and all.. mendaki.. he got it.. and some more his dad pay was like 2k. hmm..

today my off day. going ochard alone mcm budak bodoh. and maybe meet su at work buy evian water. hahahs. and eat

xoxo

married

i see.. getting married is so fun. commitment and stable.. and pure happiness on the day with families and friends.

that guy said i should get married to a stable guy. coz i am 20 alrd.
you know i love you man.

how sad how sad how sad

then might as well i find a more stable guy right now right (stubborn rebellious me)

nite

a psycotic woman maturah

alyssa said that.. coz i am very pervert and so lesbian at work. i miss azureen btw.

-

eh su, asal lom balik?

your body is a wonderland

(= love love

i everytime day dream that i swim everyday with suhairi to help him lose weight. HAHAHAHAHA

k da.

but i wish it will come true. i really wanna go swimming with him.. to see how he swims, hehe. i don't like jogging(coz tetek sakit) or anything that can make me sweat. i donno how long i nvr sweat sia.. but if i sweat also right.. it will only be on my nose.. but if i sweat more.. it will be my back. and my butt. and yeah.. more more more whole body.. forehead. hahahs.

ckp bynk.. swimming suit pon lom beli. ahahas. MR SUHAIRI, where is my swimming suit? =(

xoxo

hmm..

i want su.

attention

my co-workers bullied me. say.. they formed up a word.. like.. sam, mas.., asm all my name.. in a bad way. hahas.. like Attention Seeker Masturah. and many more uh. i am a person that fcuking dono how to fight back in words.. so,i let them say what they wanna say. hahahas. but i always call them loudspeaker. buttcrack. big nose. big nehneh. big buttock. haha. mine is cute. hehe

my black hair is making me really depress =(

sery called me ytd night. and i whined about su.. and about my hair. and she said you will always look pretty in black or blond hair. aww.. so sweet right.?

and even long term relationship got their down babe. but you know i can't see myself without him. =(

random: you look like J LO. haha.. fcuk you la old man

after really a long time,

it's black .. =( talking about my hair. it's fcuking black.. and i really hate it.. URGH!. but just have to live with it.

i met kambing last thursday. and watched PUSH. if you like JUMPER. you will certainly
love this movie. and i like dakota fanning. sometimes i think i am a paedophile. hahas. NO!

and ytd. su fetched me from work.. hmm.. love you

xoxo

Upset

he's probably going drinking with his friends. =( whatever.



Shadowplay - The Killers

to the center of the city where all roads meet, waiting for you
to the depths of the ocean where all hopes sank, searching for you
well, i was moving through the silence without motion, waiting for you
in a room without a window in the corner i found truth

i want to meet the killers.. fcuk

talk about flaws

date with su yesterday. (=

coz someone can't go out with me on thurs.. so oh wells. i am meeting kambing later. (=

we watched role models it's quite lame but funny. the only lame part that is lame is where she always do this hotdog thingy.. she's really sick man.. but funny coz we kept laughing and laughing. hahahas.
and he said the red jumpsuit apparatus now album really fierce. hahah.. and wanted to go but changed the mind coz the live is not that nice uh.. i don't like them.. hmm.. really not nice to listen to. then i stop listening. hahhas.

su,
i love you. you love me?
mas

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get excited over a new plant. hahahs. and ew.. hate my uniform. =(

xoxo

save

someone save me

i love him

=(

cry cry cry cry cry cry baby

i am sorry

something to post

i thought i wanted to post something.. but it was too depressing. shld talk to Su later. where are you?? =(

niwae, at work totally boring bored to death.. but luckily there was this kambing who kept me company by smsing me.. he said it was weird coz this few day he kept miss-ing me. haha. FUNNY! but wednesday gonna meet him.. & the next day will be a date with sery. (=

su, when is our date?

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yesterday, went out with wati.. met SU first actually to eat. we ate at marina food court. wah.. tandoori chicken really nice. my fingers went red.. coz su teached me to eat with hand. haha. but when i think again i could actually just eat it with fork and spoon. stupid. virgin sia mkn roti naan with tandoori chicken.. it's really delicious uh. (= happy to eat with him.

then watched Marley&Me with wati. i hate Plaza Sing cinema. hahas. the seating haiyo.. i cried when the dog is dying.. so sad.. first movie that i cry for this year. but maybe i am not with su that's y i cry. hahha.. i rmbr-ed last year i watched sex and the city the movie also quite sad eh.. but i only cried abit. coz he asked you cry eh? and i said no uh.. sleepy.. hahah.. and he will always disturb me. guess i am always strong when i am with him.

hugs&kisses i need you

i thought you want to go home early? are you home yet?

karma

i went back late ytd.. met su after with wati.

so, i was in my room.. really tired and sleepy.. and i wanted to go to the toilet coz i was having flu.. and i open the door and my mom was in front i was like WTH sia.. coz my mum always check on us.. she asked but in like screaming way.. oh, i hate her.. she screamed,"why you went back late? go where?" and i was like shut up uh. haha..

and so in the morning i woke up and my upper lip is like swollen like that.. =( haha.
i am really a bad daughter.

miss

my bladder is weak.
i don't wanna go toilet coz shafiqah just vomitted =( kesian die..

& i am so proud of her.. she's playing the trumpet. i wanted to learn how to blow and all back in secondary days. ahhas.. but too bad stuck in clarinet. not that easy though.. no friend to click resulting in quitting. =(

but the thing is she once said that she wanna learn how to play piano.. and i bought for her a drumset.. last two years. and she complaint.. she wanted piano not drum.. =( until now i still haven't buy her a piano. hahas. sial la aku ni..

i miss su. ='(
serious serious serious

he's not at home yet. now is like 1:18am. haiya. not that i am controlling or what. not that i don't care at all. but it's good that he still smses me eventhough lepak-ing with his gay partners.. i feel really good coz i know most of his friends and get to lepak with them too.. (= so, there's no trust breaching before. i love him alot. ohgod,pls protect him.

goodnight

i love you

"for old time sake",suhai whispered
suhai really take good photo. hahas.

& so i bought that cam (= before work on last Friday.. i am quite upset about my pay figure but nevertheless am very happy to get the cam and to meet the boy who send me to work with his gay partner.. hehe..

took 10photos. your Boyfriend handsome that was what Henry said. hehehe. (= i know.

&will be meeting wati after work tmr. gonna watch Marley&Me i guess.. bump me at town k

xoxo