morning dew

love you

2009-12-28T12:10:00.002+08:00

2009 is coming to an end. I am still uncertain about what is going on next year. haha

well 2009 has been really sucky to me. with suhairi accident and all. Dammit. but i am glad we got through it yaww.

anyway, i love you so much

xoxo

netbook

2009-12-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

i want this (=
tumblr is being so anal now. & i need to blog this. hurhur

anyway, tmr is our 26th monthsary.
guess what su said. heheh..

eh tmr our 5 years anniversaries eh. HAHAHAHAHAHA

baked

2009-09-15T14:07:00.002+08:00

heheheheheheheheehehehehehe

i am so bored. hais.. i want to go out with su =( watch movie. eat dinner. hais. why must it be like this. don't like.

later go library then meet su. omg.. going to raya already. but my house is still in a mess.(not that messy acutally) hmm.. we don't care actually. hahahaha. and now while looking outside the living room. i saw my brother sleeping on the computer chair with the TV on.. must be really tired.

yesterday went to my aunt's house. yeap.. my grandmama senile is getting out of hand. i am scared that i will be like that. hais.. lucky never stay at my house. coz my mother uh.. haiya. short temper. always screaming. but.. haha.. i realise that i never get can in my whole life. hahahaha.. i must be really good right and innocent right. i must be. =D

k la.

xoxo

a change

2009-09-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

i found my inner peace at www.yetanotherone.tumblr.com & you will too

xoxo
loves

again

2009-09-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

so fun making biscuits with those cute little monsters..
i brought them down to buy corn flour. and the sister said must HALAL must HALAL. wth.. then the other younger sister damn funny merepek.. the blue color detergent she said this is blueberry drink. hahahas. so funny and lame.

after that met su. (= watched UP. i thought that show will be like damn damn damn funnny coz it received alot of media coverage.. but haiya.. it's not that funny like adam sandler movie.. but i thought it's romantic show. (= i love su so much.

HAPPY BACK

2009-09-05T23:02:00.002+08:00

coz su gave me a virtual hug.. and i just smacked shafika.(i am a sadist) HAHA and i saw this pic.. i happy already (=

piss

2009-09-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

I AM SO ANGRY!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya.. sometimes in the bus.. i will discreetly pull people hair when i am angry.. or step their foot.. or smack their head or hand. HAAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

exult

2009-09-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

today i met suhairi (=

i will never get tired for love.

love my sisters and bro and su. (=

like when i am exhausted from work but when i reached home. i am not anymore.. strange right..

xoxo

and yay.. i gonna get a swimming suit for my birthday.. thanks in advance. heheh.. i can go swimming with suhairi now.. when he gets better.

so now.. i want a jogging shoe and sports bra. truthfully.. i never owned a sports bra before in my whole entire 19years11months. and a lot of days life. hahahah..

ya.. faster come my jolly october!

imprinted

2009-09-04T10:58:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i don't know why.. hmm.. maybe it's my mensus.. emotional turbulence took over me. i felt like crying all the time. i deserved a smack on my face. yeah.. yesterday morning didn't start good. seriously.. i realized that i forgot to bring my keys only when i have reached jurong.. imagine i have to turn back.. =( yeah.. hais.. so careless of me.. hais.. i was like trying to imagine how su hit the car last time. i was sad.. the first few days he was inside the hospital.. wah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! k la.. stop it la mas.

xoxo

love su alot.

chat

2009-09-03T00:00:00.001+08:00

lets chat. (=

LOVE LOVE YOU

SUHAIRI AND SERY
AFIQAH AND HUDA.

rhyme kan name kawan aku nie. hehehe

xoxo

tomorrow

2009-09-01T23:58:00.004+08:00

hi.

today was bad luck rotten day. seriously.. the last thing i want to hear from su is saying something that i don't like. infuriated crazy. almost want to cry in the bus. what's up.? coz i never listen to what he says. EVERYTIME!! and ya lar. i was so upset. and late to work. 2nd time at IMM. coz of the stupid shuttle bus! TOOT. and i followed my instinct to walk to this area. i thought it's a shortcut to get down. BUT when i got there. WAH!! infested with construction worker.. i was damn scared don't know what to do. searching for escape. and so i just turn and walk back. haha.. was funny actually. and it rained heavily. ='( that is why i took the shuttle bus. and i got drenched too. was cold. so depressing right? ya lar. hais.. so sad. ..........

but now OK already.. =) =) =)

xoxo hehehe

been missing you

2009-08-31T01:11:00.003+08:00

love is irrational. the more you loved someone, the less sense anything made.

discount?

2009-08-31T01:01:00.003+08:00

I WAS FULL OF MADNESS AND TIREDNESS AT WORK JUST NOW.! F***(i have not been scolding vulgarities for quite a long time!) everytime ask for EHEM!. wth. if you have money to go. why no money to buy stuffs for it. like WTF right? haixx. somemore say EHEM! it's the quality that matters!! in other high end shop.. it will be mad EHEM!! la. seriously WTF with you. and i was dammmmmmit tired then i put on my high voice to her and now i feel so bleah.. how could i treat VIP like that. AHAHAH..

da la mas.. part of parcels of working in retail store facing EHEM!

sorry for the EHEM! I scared if i say the truth it will jeopardize my career.

i rarely talk about work anyway..

have fun. i need to snore now. byebyebye. i like the song byebyebye HAHAHAH

new moon

2009-08-25T22:22:00.003+08:00

he smiled my favorite crooked smile.

i love su so much.
what i desperately want now is to go out on a date with him. =(
going to 3months now. and 2more month. and he could walk independently.

i wish that we could sneak out on 12Oct(my bdae) and 25Oct. to eat and watch movie and have fun.

i miss you bloody much

today marks our 22nd month together

eh???

2009-08-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

i miss having mum preparing the food for pre-dawn meal.

oh and someone stole my hard earned savings from su's working pouch. $60 bucks eh. su kept it for me coz i always spent everything. now.. i always put money on his bank account. hahahahas. save for rainy day people. and i withdraw $20 everyday. haha.. so i could watch what i spend on. and i bought a peace ring today.! i like very very much.

tmr go library then meet su.. oh man.. i am running out of clothes. i have no idea what to wear. =(

and can't make out during fasting monthl. =( i miss his tender touch. but actually that day when he smiled sheepishly at me.. i could felt his warmness of the soul(a7x! hahah). love him to the max.

xoxo

lovelove

2009-08-19T20:20:00.001+08:00

i am so happy for myself. (= i lose 1KG. hahaha..
HAHAHhhahahahahahHAHAHHhHAHAHAHAHhahahahhHHAHAH

i am SO HAPPY

mini shopping spree tmr?? hehe

clubbing

2009-08-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

i am worrying about su situation right now.. but su. up to you ok. think wisely.

and something made me laughed out loud just now at work.. haha. May went clubbing ytd. she said it has been so long la not to dance and all.. and so she just drank and watched people dance.. ahhahahahhahaha. she so funny. Nana too.. showed me how the clubbers dance.. one girl danced like telling the guys to fuck her. and May can't accept it. hahah.. coz maybe she is old already.. like what people say..when you grow older you think wiser. haha.

fasting month is getting nearer.
i no mood to raya

ice age. yes man.

2009-08-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

watched ice age and yes man with su just now. (=

$8 damage for USB Cable. hahas. haiya.. then i bought seventeen mag again.. i don't know why?

tmr morning shift. i am very tired of working already. =(

& i also don't like to eat. every food is the same to me.. or maybe my standard food is super high.. haha.. NANA was so excited about the AH MEI Roti Prata.. she said it's nice very nice.. i expected damn nice.. nicer than the Prata House. but i think actually it is just normal roti prata lor. hahas. haiya..

and i only ate garlic bread and chocolate cream roll. i don't want eat. i don't want.

you the light

2009-08-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

shafiqa

2009-08-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

she is the most cutest lovable kid ever.. and annoying too. hahas.

ya. i bought for her shared with su.. a hello kitty keyboard puzzle with frame. hehe.. so cute. hmm.. actually i thought.. i have always thought that i am so gonna buy keyboard for her..coz the last time i bought for her drum set and she said she wanted keyboard. and she actually got a keyboard certificate or something. hahahs. but coz i have no time to find and financial crisis i bought her that cute thing. (= happy happy hor.

can't wait for my birthday to be 20! haha.

and i actually plan what to buy for suhairI. hahahahahahhaha

I AM A PLANNER.

$18.40 =(

2009-08-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

gone for taking cab from woodlands to my house. i hate woodlands so much..

and so i thought to search present for shafiqa.. her birthday tomorrow.. hah.. but i don't know.. see my mood. all depends on my mood. hahah.

watching SG IDOL now. hehe..

and i love IRIS-GOO GOO DOLLS.

25minutes

2009-08-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

boy i missed your kisses.

hate

2009-08-10T23:10:00.001+08:00

saying hate out of anger is really wah.. haiya. hehe.. move on people

down jackets drop on my head while msging su. mad pain.. till got a slight headache just now.

hmm.. then got alot of banglas just now. and i like to wear skirt. and i really miss su badly. =( he sleeping now.. but i am strong will. still waiting for him to be online. hahaha. da la mas. go and sleep.

xoxo

kiss me su

2009-08-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

chelsea chelsea

2009-08-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHA

i deserve a smack on my face.. gundu ass. i miss my stop just now. hahah. can't help it uh. i was so engrossed with my novel just now while sms-ing with su. ahaha. and sad.. can't watch fireworks coz i miss my stop. boohoohoo.. and i banged at the counter wall.. hahahahaha. and gillian surreptitiously laughing at me. haha. and i got tongue-tied serving this heheehe couple. BIG FISH LEH!! i caught 2 BIG FISH today!! got one more thing also. haha.. i almost went inside the male toilet. ahahha. i was like eh?! ahhahaha OMG. what a gundu la mas.

ok

xoxo

adam chen is on TV. and waiting for su to be online. (=

ADAM SO CUTE! adam got suhairi's eyes and eyebrows. HAHAHAHAHA k bye

hmm

2009-08-09T00:19:00.003+08:00

i am trying not to hate someone.. but haiya. getting on my nerves seriously. =/

anyway, was at su's place just now. watched tv only. nothing too exciting or what.oh, we watched hangover. haha. so funny.. haha.. alamak.. anything is funny to me ya?

i miss staying at home and just sleep you know. i guess i miss sleeping. i need a 24hours or maybe 32hours of sleeping. hahas.

and i miss going out with su. =/ hais. and i miss working at suntec. and i and i miss misses alot of things. =(

xoxo

fall in love again

2009-08-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

yesterday i worked 2 to 6pm. actually i feel bad.. coz the shop still got alot to do. and may have no off day. =( we were all so tired. my arms muscle are aching till now. k la.. stop whining mas. and today is my off day yaww. going to the library later then meet su.

yesterday. su was so handsome. (= really really love him. well i really like the song at jana's blog.. really suit my mood now. ya. we went to late night movie. WE as in his siblings and the cousins. haha. eat at newton first then watched G.I JOE.. i miss the last part though coz went to the toilet. and the handicap thingy so cool. hehehe.. su naik whelchair. ahas.

well i love su alot.

xoxo

hmm.. i want to wear skirt. =( but cannot.

why oh why

2009-08-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

we gonna be together like before like we will always be.

(=

hohoho

2009-08-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

i met su today. (=

and my aunt msged me.. it's funny that i always randomly thought about her. coz her face is in this big banner la with her pink blouse. everytime see see.. i felt like i have been watched by her. creepy feelings. ahha.. and you know what.. she msged me bile nak dtg ruma die. i was like freaking shocked. haha. yeah. and she so good also want to help suhairi. well, they have met. hehe.. so funny. met my relatives formally but not my own parents. =|

ok anyway.. weird la. this stuffs always happen. when you think so much about the person.. and the person would suddenly msg you. you know.

xoxo

funfunfun life

2009-08-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

what is life?

hahaha..i no life? =(

no la.. suhairi said this is the best time to go out with my friends.. and i answered i will feel selfish and guilt ridden if i go out with my close friend while he just lay down on the bed. of coz la.. he got company.. but it will be a different feeling. like yesterday i have staff outing. the feeling of worriness is killing me softly. but hehehe.. he's going to get discharge on friday yawww.. (= but still... =(

and tomorrow start work at IMM back. hais. so boring. and i hate su to be at woodlands. so much transport money.

and i think life is to be with someone you love.

simple minded people..

and the goal for su in life is to get married.

but it is the truth seriously.

masturah sweet

2009-08-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

i had so much fun bowling the pins just now. and the place that we bowl was at raffles country club something i donno... wah.. the place damn grand!! i love it. this year staff outing was damn fun. (= i just love to bowl.

i miss bowling with su.

xoxo

oh.. i spilled strawberry yogurt in my bag. haha.. i smell sweet.

hehe

2009-08-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

blogger is ok already??

heheh..

i posted some of my entry at the other blog. hehe.

xoxo

why oh why??

2009-07-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

this is killing me. i swear i gonna move to livejournal.. hahaha. or maybe not? see la next 3 days. (= see i am giving you chance blogspot. haha

it's human to feel upset when you expected for things to go your way but all gone bad huh.. but i guess hmm.. not to expect so much.

hmm.. what is serious relationship? hmm..

xoxo

NOBODY but you

2009-07-29T00:32:00.003+08:00

i want nobody nobody but you, su. (=

so cool right the video. hehe.

well i had a bad day today. i cried coz of anger in the morning. like WTF. hais.but what to do. haiya. and i can't wait to shop on friday at cotton on on my dinner break. woohoo

xoxo

miss alot of miss

2009-07-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

a sudden feeling of missing him too much now.. it has been hmm.. gonna be 2month.. haiya

and i have been a bad friend coz i don't have much time to spare with them. but i hope they would understand. =( and kambing got a fractured toes. will be 1 month recovery at home. why he also accident. and actually ytd i almost got into an accident also. you see life is too short and unpredictable.. damn.. SG Road is super dangerous. so, please ride safely. don't speed.

i miss su

wanna be with you

2009-07-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

blogger is like what now.. coz i can't upload photos. if this happen again i think i will go to livejournal much more sophisticated. hahaha.

and tmr i will at United Square. (= heheheh

short short

2009-07-26T22:22:00.003+08:00

been posting short short entries. my brain got a limited space.. alot of it was filled with suhairi and nenek K. haha. seriously so scary. and zura CB. haha.

today i went shopping!!!!!!!! hahas.

i bought a straw hat that suhairi wants badly. bloody nice uh at River Island. i like it so much. and i bought myself a tote bag for $5 only. hehe.. super cheap. i like very much.

he wanted to wear the collar shirt and the straw hat when he discharge. ehehe.. i hope i will be there to see him. (=

xoxo

woots

2009-07-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

haha..

it was so funny to see su, the sister the brother planning for the surprise birthday for the another sister. haha.

hope it works. good luck. hehe

you my baby oohlala..

2009-07-24T23:35:00.003+08:00

before we go steady..

that day was like celebrating my birthday on advanced. celebrated at west coast. it was so sweet of them lar.. that was 2years ago. su, sery and mun. hahas.. suhairi touched my butt and i touched his hips to play on the swings. and i cannot believe it that he told his fellas about that.. hahah. he like it very much. ahaha.. funny. i also like.

and we chatted about how he felt awkward to talk to me coz he don't know whether i like him or not.. and he don't know how to treat me as what. haha.. and i said you never asked me.. and he said he was shy..and asked me,"will you have make out with then?" haha.. but seriously i kissed him first. hahas.. see.. i love him more man.. hehe..

well.. miss him.

and kambing got into accident. but he didn't tell me. i feel so not important. hmph..

love su my baby oohlala

snoozeless

2009-07-24T00:26:00.001+08:00

i can't sleep this days.
i need sleeping pills.

huda, give me your sleeping pills, please. hehe

useless

2009-07-23T00:28:00.003+08:00

i already whined to sery and huda. do i feel better? yeah. much better.

i miss him.

meaningful

2009-07-21T00:47:00.004+08:00

i thought i wanted to post something meaningful to suhairi. i always thought about it. like how to type it here. but i am not good in playing words and all. but i just want you to know that whatever it is. you are always in my heart, su. will always be. ok.

your flaw made it flawless.

i donno what it mean either. hahs

xoxo

sister

2009-07-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

me:how come you have dimple?
adik:what is dimple?
me:you smile. i show you.
adik:oh. coz i fat.
me:then why iqa don't have?
adik:coz she's too fat.
me:hahahahaha!
adik:(turns to iqa)sorry! hahaha

SO BITCHY MY SISTER SO BITCHY!

robert

2009-07-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

i like his eyes. ..

su said he wanted to read all my entries when he got home. haha. read la syg. keke

i had fun with su today. all alone with him except for the mother and brother visits. but it's ok. (= i love love him.

true love is about physical touch.

xoxo

private feelings

2009-07-18T22:06:00.005+08:00

well i felt disconsolated everytime he said/did sad things towards me.

and now i am in a real great pressure. he wants me to be there when he got discharge. i don't really think i am close to his family. i am really bad at pleasing aunties and uncles. but he just don't understand. i sucks so much i hate it.

or i think i hate this like commitment or something that families have to be involve and all. maybe maybe in my heart i am just not ready. but i will always love him.

xoxo

lisa see

2009-07-17T23:36:00.005+08:00

i understand how her book was the New York Bestseller.! i am reading this book. Peony in love. it's wah.. it brought me in tears. i understand how the girl feel. just like me minus the china dynasty part (hehe). the best i have ever read. (= it moved me real good.

& su was disappointed with my attitude. kekeke. i know i sucks

but you still love me
coz i enraptured your heart

love you
you are the best i have ever had

hehehe

meet you there

2009-07-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

meet you there SU!

jealousy

2009-07-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

i just realise my mobile could do a quick memo! ahha. and now my wallpaper is like su's sexy face and I HATE HER memo. haha.

i am feeling really tired now. hais.. i love su i love su i love su.

I WISH I HAVE A WHOLE ALONE TIME WITH SU!!!!! but that won't happen coz i guess he need other people too..

nononono don't phunk with my heart

1 more month to go. sery HUGHUG

again and again

2009-07-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

today was so funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was alone then M called to check stock. so i did it. and suddenly U came inside. he asked alot of questions. and another C came inside. i was like haha. BUSY. and totally forgot about the phone call. i only realised it when N asked me why you put the phone like that. i was like OOOPS!!!!!!! we laughed out loud. haiya.. STM or what. luckily M is so got alot of patience. hehehe..

clumsy act

2009-07-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

i spilled water on suhairi's face again. but this is so funny.. coz got this apek also laugh. wah.. where to get super clumsy girl like me. wah. i really hate my character. =( i must be careful.

don't be sorry

2009-07-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

i am lucky to have suhairi. without him i will feel fucking lost i tell you. seriously i should have listen to him to not accept the transfer to IMM. =( he thought about everything but i am just stubborn.. haiya. i am so regretting my decision. i still love suntec. =( and hais. transportation is just so fcuking expensive la. =(

& i miss you CHEN shi ying. =( boobobooboboooobobobobobo
i love su.
so understanding

great day

2009-07-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

i had so much fun with su today. (=

& i really don't know why that i bought seventeen mag. HAHAH.

xoxo

ribs

2009-07-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

today is the FIRST time in my LIFE.
got to eat ribs at AMK 608. hahas. ya. aku slenge bachin. and it is su's fave that was what the sister told me. kekeke.

hmm.. seriously it shocked me that the sister said her friend started saving money at the age of 21 to get married at 27. $1.6 per mth. wahh.. seriously i want to start saving too. hehehe.. since su is not working. and that was why the sister said many girls marry old men. hmm.. ok i thought.

anyway, i really need to stop spending money. tell me who spend $500 in just 1 week? ME. half of my pay. i tell you.

regret not studying really well. full of regrets. =( i guess i need a mentor who can lead me to somewhere. but i don't have any.

xoxo

miss su alot.

no handlebar

2009-07-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

sometimes su said the most sweetest thing girl(I) wanna hear. hehe

"i miss u on my chest gazing at the beautiful dark sky decorated with alot of stars at lower pierce reservoir while playing old slow romantic songs. Love you."

hugs

& i love to do things on my own. seriously. shop alone. walk alone. even watch movie alone. hahas. if i am a housewife confirm tk leh ddk rumah diam. hahas.

today went home at 1pm. it was raining so i took cab. lazy to walk to the train. so far. & i don't want to get wet.i can even take the shuttle bus but someone said i looked like a nurse today so i felt really insecure with myself and i went home and get changed. haha. told that to su. jokingly saying i can be your personal nurse hehe.

went to the library. borrowed books. haha. borrowed calvin and hobbed and x-men. but when i showed it to him to surprise him. he said he already read it. and i was like =O hahaha. k la. nevermind.

then i thought wanna meet shi ying miss her. but she replied my msgs late. so i msged faizul but too bad it rained really heavily. then i walked alone senyum sendiri to plaza sing. hahahahaha. LONER

pokerface.

2009-07-04T22:18:00.004+08:00

seriously working with chinese i feel hmm.. alienated. but as time pass by and yeah... working with them 5days and a half for 1year. yea.. i learnt a bit of it. i am not that fluent but at least i know. =) i like the feeling of it. like when they are talking and forgot about me. i will sometimes ehem. KPO. hahas. it was fun asking questions and all.

and ytd my in-charge said. oh i just moved to IMM. before that it was all chinese. yea.. so yesterday she said good eh you come her. i asked why. and she answered coz i can catch up with my english. everytime talked mandarin.i feel happy. (=

and just now someone got really irritated coz i was too hardworking. first time some one got irritated by it. hahaha. so funny. it was fun at work.

i adapt fast to environment. (=

tmr will be meeting su. (I CHOSE THE WORD MEETING INSTEAD OF VISITING. COZ I AM IN DENIAL. HAHA ) happy. love him to death. and he invite me to go pray with him on fasting month. seriously i was abit ashame of myself coz i don't practice it. shame on my self. haiya. and he will be fully heal on the fasting month i think. that was what he said. very long. but we just got to be strong you know. i can;t wait to do alot of stuffs with him. going out, watching movie, play bowling, swimming.. everytime i think about his finger intertwine with mine. it made me sad. hais. it made him sad too. i miss him

xoxo
GET WELL SOON!!!

Imm

2009-07-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

transportation money to IMM is unbelievable 4bucks a day. WTF you want from me. hahaahs.

this is so unfair. fucking unfair. i hate it. you stupid bitch must have slept with him. fuck you. ahahs.

anw, while crossing the road. got 2 cute dogs beside me with the owners la. then this act cute girl.wa liao.. bueh tahan uh. stick out her tongue and do stg on her nose. like WTF. act cute nak mampos. like as if the dog is like looking at her. hahaha. Syok Sendiri.

& today i went shopping and bought stg for su. hehe. hope he like it. coz i love it.

xoxo
su said lets elope.

sad

2009-07-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

i cannot control my emotions really well. i accidently spilled the water on his shirt. and he got really mad and scolded me for being clumsy. it wasn't on purpose seriously. ='( i feel so useless at that time. i was bloody sad seriously i cried not in front of him. my face hide under his armpit. i think that is my fave place to hide. hahas. i really feel sad smpi terbwk2 otw home. imagine tears rolling down your cheeks while you are walking to the bus stop. wah.. embarrasing seh. haiya.

then i just need a hug. and called huda. she really into her hair now. hahas. tk leh tahan sia huda. hahas. yeayea she so funny. when i was in tears. she was like far away from me and like talking in loud voice don't cry. tkmo don't cry. ahah. that made me laugh serious shit. hahas.

anyway, i really miss su. hais. how? i am not that strong enough.

and me being a super klutz hais.. so useless

squeezed

2009-07-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

i wish when su got well. he will fetch me if i do afternoon shift. coz JURONG EAST is fucking scary la the place. infested by hmm.. i don't like. so scary so dark the place to walk to the train. i hate west area. i hate it so much. but what to do. =(

and the WTF thing was. =( i got squeezed by this fat guy & a bangla that donno how to sit. i felt so miserable just now. and su said these people cannot trust close your cleavage. hahah. seriously i was hugging myself all the way. =( so sad

i miss su alot.

farewell

2009-06-30T23:12:00.004+08:00

heheh. i met sery today to shop shop shop. kekeke. oh man. sery i should have buy sia the black shoe. =( geex. when aku gi suntec nye topshop tkde size aku. so sad babe. and imm sucks seh shopping mall die. i heard seme nye is a factory outlet. like WTF seh. hais. so regretting my decision to go there. hais. but lao aku tak gi IMM aku tak leh get promoted. stupid eh. k. thanks for accompanying me. hehehe. aku suke kau ckp aku jitak kau. so cute. ahhaha

anyway,
today is my last day at suntec hehe. i was in tears just now when they surrprise me with a gift. i so gonna miss them. hahas. serious shitt sia. thank you

and WTF cannot upload photos. =(

xoxo

hugs

2009-06-29T22:16:00.002+08:00

i met su today.

he said he's sorry for not always fetching me always coz he was just plain lazy. it's strange that baru skrg he realise that. haha.play game only at home. i just got to laugh it off. what is there to say. hahas.

&& his hospital bed is really damn comfy..

anyway, thursday can meet him again. & tmr i am so gonna wake up early and go shopping.. (=

MCR concert

2009-06-27T22:22:00.003+08:00

we went to their concert on Dec12 2007. it was afiq's bdae. we had so much fun. i miss su. i miss su so much. ='(

and this song

he said. the first time when we went out as a steady. hehe. he said he will sing me that song. if he want a break up. and one bloody night. he sang that to me. i was all in tears. like in a drama. hahah. i ran for a cab. but he screamed my name. like i care that time. yeah. we always reconcile after a bad bad argument. what do we always argue about? hmm.. eheh

anyway, just wanted to post this pic.

after the MCR concert. (=

=(

2009-06-27T22:05:00.003+08:00

S:hehe. Ok. Good. If u cry i'll feel bad syg.
M:no. If you cry. i will feel useless.
S:Ya. So i wont cry k love.
M:Ok. Hugs

=( i feel like crying now. well, i am tearing up already. this. this is not for me. i feel so hurt. i feel so so .. i donno . i really miss you. can't wait to meet you again love. =(

good woman

2009-06-27T00:12:00.001+08:00

i very much miss suhairi =(

werewolf

2009-06-26T23:48:00.001+08:00

a song about father had sex with own daughter. how sad

oh my

2009-06-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

my boyfriend sms-ed me. that MJ is dead coz of cancer. i was definately shocked upon that time. and giggled for abit. coz just that day. have you heard MJ singing malay song. singing praises to ALLAH. yeah. i really hate that song. and kept on critisizing the song. shafiqa really like it. and kept it on repeat. till i snapped at her. coz damn irritating. hahs. but now he's dead. so sad. but yeah. GOD BLESS HIM.RIP

& I AM REALLY HAPPY TODAY! =)

on my break time i saw Giordano having sales. then the big sign board says $10 but not obvious on the 2nd piece. hahaha. but i just try it. and i loove it. so i asked the sales assistant when is the sale gonna end. and she answered while stocks last. grr.. and i was haiya. so, i whined to my BF. hehe. and he readily transfered $50 to me. with the help from iza of coz. dammit happy (= i really loove the shorts. (= thanks loove

and when i got home. the long awaited jelly purple camera on my bed with my simple black dress. am so happy la. (=

so so gonna wear my shorts tmr.

xoxo

cold shudders.

2009-06-25T22:49:00.004+08:00

hellos. hahas.

today is su's day. (= before that i went to AMK HUB to get him prata sausage. i worked at AMK Times Warehouse before. and su sometimes fetched me. and we would always lepaked with his friends and sometimes just walk ard AMK Hub and watched movie. so, the thing is.. as i was walking alone. i really miss holding his hand and all. in fact today is our 20th monthsary. =( well, i really miss him. hais i typed the msged i miss walking with you but i backspaced it scared it would hurt him. =(

it was DVD Marathon with him. really miss watching show with him. yea. his siblings came and all. hahas. but they just stayed for awhile. like pity them. just visit for awhile. anyways, we watched Hotel For Dogs. which is funny actually. after that he got to do his physio. and i watched Uninvited alone. damn merepek la that story. to the ending su came backed. hehes. so he really looked tired. pity him. we watched it together. hehe. so funny or what. he's damn scared la to watch. but seriously that movie is stupid. then we watched SAW V lagi merepek. hahas.

and i ate chicken chop for my dinner. sedaapp. i like it.

saturday i gonna meet him again. (= so happy. (=

xoxo

thanks faizah for the sandal. i acting only just now. hehe

you so fat

2009-06-25T00:16:00.002+08:00

su called me. (=

yay. got to meet him tmr. yippee. feel like a kid again. we just missed alot of things. i guess with this accident he had. i think we learn alot of things. like who is the one that stick with you and all that.. and whose the one that visit just for the sake to visit. you know what i mean.

as for me? DUH!! i love him too much already. let bygones be bygones. he said he neglected me and all before this accident. but life have to move on. but sometimes i do bitch about neglecting part to my close friends. hehe. but we are good.

just that life is unfair to us. and we got to face it. we human can't change fate booboo. i wish i have super powers. hahs. kental

xoxo

true?

2009-06-23T23:22:00.003+08:00

i am waiting for su's msg or phonecall right now. =(

the last msg was sape ckp? and i replied i cute princess. we were talking about cuteness. hahs.
he slept? without saying goodnight to me? uh.. sad. unbearable anymore. life's so unfair to us. why must it be this way? wish i could turn back the time if i have the power. wtf is this. wtf. fate is evil su said. fate is evil. he broke the promises. brokedown.. dammit.

these days weird things happen at night.
i wish if i say su msg me su call me su su su but su did not now. grr.
last 3days i suppose.. i donno how has this been happening. i will be suddenly awake and su will call me. it's 4am, 5am sometimes 6am. i picked it up. telepathy work wonders on us. hahs. i miss him. i miss him too much. =(

SORRY will be posting alot of depressing love notes. hahs.

lovelove su alot.

regret

2009-06-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

today 23rd june is shi ying and my MOTHERs' bdae. hah. look what i did to shi ying. & cute elmo. (=

hehe. so cute

SURRPRISE. hehe

nice si

----

su was full of regrets just now.

regret working that night.
regret not gg out and walk walk with me.
regret regret regret regret

i really miss going out with him.
we feel so empty now. =(

xoxo

heghe

2009-06-22T23:49:00.001+08:00

i have a reader from US. hehehehehehehehehehehheheheheheheheheh

i miss su so much. =(

stupid mistake

2009-06-22T22:32:00.001+08:00

he:why you keep on breaking my heart?
she:you break my heart too. when you got into the accident.
both:hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

after work today i went to visit suhairi. and he msged me that he's depressed and all. hais. and when i reached there. wah. really. the place is fucking depressing. i really feel sad for him. pity him very much. he really want to get out of there fast. very fast 2 weeks. and wanted the mother to take the caregiver course shits. but the mother insisted he to be there for a month. i was there with him. and was like speechless. well aku ni mmg. tak berbual dgn mak die. haha. pity him. =( seriously. =(

i donno what to say anymore
THAT HOSPITAL IS THE SHIT(BAD) MAN! =(

xoxo

stuck in my mind

2009-06-20T22:50:00.001+08:00

i like this song

every minute every second

2009-06-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

i miss su.

tmr is fathers' day. and i am going out with one tmr. hahahahs. kidding. (my own joke)

i am going to meet su. i can't stop thinking about him. like what is he doing? like wtf.. mesti uh.. just lay on the bed like nobody buisness. anyway, he so cute.. sing i want nobody nobody but you. kekeke..

ok la.

seriously bored without him. =(

& i think i want to start labelling my post. like hehhe.. so cool.

every post i did is all about su. so, i guess i should label his full name. hehe.. later he can become popular. & i can't believe that he told his sister he wanted to marry bcoz i got alot of CPF money. haha. i don't want marry you anymore. hahahaha

3more days to SY bdae.
5more days to 20monthsary. hahahas. tu pon nak bilang. so kental

xoxo

aching

2009-06-19T22:59:00.002+08:00

i hate to see su doing his sad face. it's fcukin irritating. & my heart will be like hais. =( if i should leave him or what. i want to see his happy face. hahs. for i won;t feel any guilt carrying a heavy heart.

my hand is aching. guess i did alot of work today. hais. if su is here he will massage my hand. hahs.

glad he's getting better everyday.

& sery. there will always be next time. don't sad sad. learn from your mistakes babe., love you hugs.

xoxo

gundu

2009-06-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

haiya. i donno what song is this playing on my blog. hahs. gundu or what. grr.. donno how to delete it even. hais. i can't stop thinking of su. sometimes i think i am a good psychic or what. su couldn't get to sleep last night. i remember i was dreaming about my hp rang and it was su talking to me. suddenly i was awake and su called me at 6am. terrible right. =( pity him. talk with him for awhile. sometimes i say.. i donno which is which. am i in reality now?

well this is fate.

pity you

2009-06-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

su put me first before him.

i have been visiting him almost everyday. coz i really miss him. and i am scared he will miss me too. hehe. i asked him what do you miss most about me? and he answered hugs and kisses. .. ( am i only good at that?) ahhah. k whatever. the thing is.. he wanted me to go home. but i want to stay. and he said pity you have to go home alone in the MRT and all. tak senonoh srg2 in the train and bus at night. but it was only 10pm. hahas. and i was like.. ok. i go home. and he gave me $10 for my cab fare. he is so nice eventhough in the hospital. LONELY. =( i wish i am not working so i could stay like everynight. i wish.

and today i went shopping with SY. i bought stg. happy.

xoxo

strong baby

strange

2009-06-18T00:34:00.002+08:00

grr.. i really miss su now. right now. =( oh well..

soon on friday CONFIRM i will get my hands on my 2nd Camera. kekeke. jelly jelly jelly

anyway, today is the beginning day of MANGO SALE. damn. i went in. like night market or what. zura snatched 3pieces of shirts. where else what about me? NOTHING. but the man is cute though. hehehe. yea. i was like walking alone inside MANGO on my lunch break. damn. i donno what to get. strange right? it's like i have no mood to shop anymore. i think suhairi is doing his don't shop magic on me. hahas. i miss going shopping and watching movie with him. i really do =(

xoxo

skinhead

2009-06-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

hehee.
the surprise for me from su was actually his botak head. kekekek. so cute. will take photo of him soon. should have shoot him today but i guess i was staring at him in awe. hahah. i really love him. i guess you all should know already. he is very lucky. not to have me. but to survive the accident. he fractured like both of his hand. and broken his left pelvis bone. and left foot toes. and right knee or stg. lucky right? but now he still couldn't walk. it takes time syg. i am really proud of you that you can stand already. =)

and i just deleted a whole chunk of how he got this accident. ahahas. donno why.

xoxo

tired

2009-06-16T19:32:00.001+08:00

i have been visiting every morning this time. haha. i am so tired and sleepy. =(
but i will still wake up early for him. for him i am EVEREADY for anything. heheh

xoxo

invincible

2009-06-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

syg, we are invincible. =)

wah =D

2009-06-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

today woke up early to visit su. (= well really happy for him. tears of happiness was out just now. he did it. he made alot of improvement. really happy. (= HUG.

and he said tmr morning he got a surrprise for me. what it is man?. hmm anyway just now it was super embarassing coz when i kissed him the mum came in. embarassing right? haha. dammit.

and i am the handicap bully. big bully. hahas.

hey love. hug

empty

2009-06-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

how do you feel emptiness?

someone in love suffering and you can't do anything about it. and you miss everything. and all you want is him. him that you want the most. him that you longing to be with.

miss you syg

last year bdae post from SU

2009-06-14T00:07:00.001+08:00

(my sweet sexy love, masturah.)
im so dead.

sorry mas. i really love you but i update your blog without your permission.

hello. my name is su. yea, im the guy that she's been talking abt on and on.. and if you have seen her recently, the guy that was holding her hands den slightly moves to the background coz u guys are talking and all.. yea thats me.

so, 13th june was my birthday. celebrated with my beloved childhood playmates.. and my future playmate, namely masturah.. hehehe.. we went to marina square.. then hanging out to our favourite hang out spot.. everything was ok.. quite fun.. had been a very long time not going out with the fellars.. there was a little drama though but not gonna talk abt it here.. stay cool man.
so, the plan was, me sending mas home.. take the last bus then hangout again with muthu, afiq and probably rizal and wan.. but i missed the last bus when i got to mas' place.. but to tell the truth, it wasnt all so unfortunate.. lets just say, that was one of those times where im pretty glad i couldnt go home and am ''stuck'' with mas.. hehe.. love you.. overnite at her place.. her parents were all cool with it.. and i was kinda uncomfortable in the foreign environment, so i asked mas to stay and probably sleep with me in the living room.. in other words, i was scared i would be up all night in the dark if i cant get to sleep.. hahaha..

so woke up arnd.. i really have forgotten eventhough it was just yesterday. and the best thing was, getting to see her beautiful face, which goes along with her just-out-of-the-bed hair was the first thing i opened my eyes and of course her sweet smile to greet me.. and not to forget her short-sharp cute rock voice., which im pretty sure if i remembered correctly, laughed at me. haha.. and it was also the first time i kissed my mum's hand.. i mean..ahem.. mas' mum's hand of course.. hehe.. eventhough we've met quite a number of times.. we hugged on the.. hmm it wasnt a sofa but its like a long chair with a backrest so its not a bench but its no a sofa coz there's no cushion and its all wooden.. so yea, that long i dont know what its called long chair. i think i got it in my living room though.. haha.. oh yea, we were hugging on that chair then her mum suddenly pop out then i kissed my mum's hand.. i mean mas' mum hands.. hahaha..

so i got tasted mas' lips. *hooray. early in the morning. we didnt got a chance to brush our teeth but we just start kissing.. i felt so... chinese. hahahahahah.. but seriously, i didnt mind at all.. it was quite good actually.. but i got confused when she stopped and said ''bau''. i didnt know whether she was asking me, or my mouth was smelly but all i know i nodded my head. then we stopped.. biggest mistake of my life.. ok maybe not the biggest but its quite big.. its not everyday i get to taste ''fresh'' lips. hehe..

ok. so my whole point of telling this long-winded story is that, when i was under her block walking to the bus stop, my eyes welled up in tears and just waiting for the force of gravity to make my tears rolled down my cheeks.. i realised how much i missed spending time with her like i used to.. not going hme at all.. breathing and sharing the cool morning breeze.. the moon is not seen anywhere, and the sun isnt up yet.. i think thats when masturah looks her best.. her make up would be gone, her hair would be not so flat.. and she would always cozying up with me.. and its not so bright and the lighting is perfect.. emphasize her fair skin beautifully.. and she's just this one big cute and sweet stuff thats just been squeezed into a beautiful, sexy body.

whatever it is, this entry is to show i ever loved a girl named masturah binte musrin deeply, sincerely.

oh love, my sweet sexy love named masturah, after reading this, please smile and tell me how you feel. love you.

yours forever,
su.
oxox

i cried =(

2009-06-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

i got to go back early today. claim hour mah. and henry die die wanted me to go back at 12. but i mean.. like what. then i said 1 la. coz feel bad.

so, after work i walked to sim lim. i walked! found what i want. then walked to centrepoint. dropped by at gramophone at cathay to get GREEN DAY ALBUM.! woohoo. =) got a free poster eh. hahs. hmm.. curious eh. coz still got the SG IDOL SHIT. hahs. so funny. and i saw stupid accident in front of my eyes. but just heck. stupid driver la. whatever. reached centrepoint. bought the most expensive wrapping paper at TIMES. don't go TIMES to buy wrapping paper. wanna know how much? freakin $3.20. hahs.

reached coldwear centrepoint. zura said,"eh, srg aje?" that bitch. hahs.

but i feel happy to be with su today. and he said this birthday is the best. =) i love you syg. and from his bed could see my house. hehehehe. after the family & friends went home. it was only me & su. wah.. i donno. i couldn't control my tears in front of him no more. hahs. & i cried ='( saying how much i miss him and all. haiss. and he said everynight you are 1 that i miss so much. and i will always look there (pointing my house area). and i was like.. aww su. hais.

closed the curtain. felt so private. felt (at last) only me&su. how much i miss spending time with him. =( and he said with this accident he knew whose his friend and all. and know that i love him very much.

su, i miss you alot. i miss everything =(

last msg

2009-06-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

you are the most precious in my heart

SU, love you alot =(

splurge.

2009-06-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

who the hell splurge $140 on make ups? ANS:ME!

i wanted wanted only one coral eyeshadow. only 1! but the psycho seller really really is good. i was like what what what? but damn. it's a good deal i got. but WTH MASTURAH MUSRIN. WTH you need like alot of it. tsktsktsk and somemore she said your face oily. grrr.. i am really vulnerable person uh. hahahs.

and i don't my money can last till the end of the month. i so sad. =(

& i miss you su. =(

bismillah

2009-06-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

well i went to my aunt's house first. hahas. SY next time kay. and i realised that i have a straight bus to WOODLANDS. heheh. best kan. slenge la aku ini.

anyway, my cousins are damn funny lar. i got to teach them today. hmm.. kids. super funny. can't stop laughing. the joke is. iman wanted to erase but your know.. color pencils real hard to erase right.. then the sister diyanah told her to say BISMILLAH and erase. hahahahah .. and iman seriuosly erase so hard and recited bismillah alot of times. i can't stop laughing. serious shitt. hahaha.

then got somemore. Diyanah. she want to keep my photo. and then i said for what. and she said so later at night can see my face. i donno la. they so manja with me. especially iman. and i forced them to make a get well soon card to su. hehehe. but they willingly did it. so cute la the kids. lovve them.

i went to Tampines 1 alone. went to the UNIQLO shop. but heck there were alot of people and have no mood to shop anyway. =( coz my mind was like cotton bud,fan & stress balls. so hard la to find stress balls and fan. haha. but novena square have it all. hehe. and the shocking thing is .. papaya out of stock. =( and saturday only can visit him coz i will be working. =( why got 3 sad faces huh? haha

and i can't wait to get my hands on my JELLY FILM CAMERA! =)

I LOVE SUHAIRI MANSOR. KISSKISSKISSKISSKISS

miss susu

2009-06-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

today is a happy duper day. =)

shafiqa so cute. i cannot believe it. everytime i see her face feels like squishing her cheeks you know. that kind of grrr.. geram. cute nye.

after work settled my debt. and first time pay $100 for my bills. felt accomplished.
bought a dress for my cousin her birthday eh. so cute uh.

after that visit su. and i guess i have to face the damn reality that i am the girl FRIEND. i am a friend. but an intimate friend that is. i can't be there like almost everytime. hmm.. of coz i want to be there everyday la can. but sadly i am just a friend.

tmr plan is to visit su after hmm.. hopefully the parents left when i come. it's like i am a disturbance like that. haha. coz i am outside person you see. then to tamp. aunt's hse. and meet SY. (=

hais.
miss su
and i hate the people at the register counter. stupid know it all. donno how to go the extra mile for me. haha. see. SIAPA LA AKU INI.

BAD girlfriend

2009-06-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

i feel so bad for not waiting for him. i feel so bad.

=(

mai said go la go accompany him till morning. grr.....

james morrison

2009-06-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

this song make me miss suhairi.

miss su

2009-06-06T22:57:00.002+08:00

i called su today. got to hear his voice. i called the emergency hotline no. without knowing. but luckily she is super kind. (= miss him. got to msg him also. but the cousin and sister type for him. hehe. i super miss him. what is he doing now? just lying on the bed? you know.. i watch this porn haha. stupid porn. not horny. japan porn or china i forgot. anyway, this guy was half paralyse and then the super sexy nurse give him a BJ. sial ajer. ok random.

xoxo

4am in the morning

2009-06-06T01:08:00.003+08:00

belom tido lagi. suddenly thinking about SU. =( HAIS

chillax

2009-06-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

that was what someone told me. su was so chillaxx about it. so, why must i be paranoid. but whatever it is. i hope he is dreaming of me now. i hope no complications. hope hope full of hope. i really want to tell him stg. i really do. but he's not awake yet. and i donno if i could get off early with my sad face. hah. but whatever it is love if you read this. i will always be there for you till the end. my IRONMAN

and i no have money. =( still no haf money.

xoxo

keep holding on LOVE SU

2009-06-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

present

2009-06-04T21:41:00.003+08:00

su's bdae is coming. and i know what exactly to buy for him. =D this is it.

ipod nano. in his fave color. that if people wanna share money with me. hehe. but no also i buy. INSYA'ALLAH. (=

and jason said. ALLAH will protect him. to think back it's funny the way he pronounce it.
well, suhairi.. please get well soon .. strong strong baby

positive

2009-06-04T20:41:00.002+08:00

i was so damn depressed last 2days. 2009 have been really sucky to us. seriously, so sad. but anyway, today i feel much better. (= i cried as much as i could. at work. and even at public. ttm. but wth. i really am sad. kambing thank you for being there for me. now, i have to be positive. i know he will alright. i know it. thanks jason &zura. tkmo sakit hati lagi la zura. eheh. I AM FUCKING OKAY. =D

xoxoxo

i love you suhairi.

but it's a shock that i haven't cry in front of you. well, you really make me happy whenever i see your face. (= i love you very much.

no more guilt.

2009-05-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

i only slept for four hours. it is amazing. when i woke up. it's like i am feeling fucking fresh. stretch here and there then to work. amazing. but i know i need sleep i need sleep. it's like my body clock stated.. sleep 430am wake up 830am. what the fcuk. and tmr i got to do full shift. i am so tired. my back is killing me.

and today i always wake up 830am sharp i donno why. i am like that punctual. oh yea. today.. shafiqa my youngest sister disturbed by pulling down my shirt and then she always stare so close at my face. wtf seh. then just now. i smacked her real hard and screamed. hahaaha. and it's shocking that she didnt cry. ahaha. she is a crybaby mania. haiya. well, yeah. i think she love my face very much grrr.....

and i met sery just now to eat. hehehe. so cute.
and i miss su. he had so much fun at escape till he lost his voice. hahaha

love you ass

suhai sexy

2009-05-29T00:58:00.002+08:00

geez.. i thought my pay come out already. sucks man. =( kesian su. i feel black. =(

i love having you for the day sexy. love you

pray hard i could go shopping tmr. hehehe. alot of things to get.

xoxo

and i watched night at the museum. well, it's was super funny. lame i suppose. give it 3.5 stars. eeheh.

bye

dreams

2009-05-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

lately been having weird dreams.. involving moon. sun. dog. well, ntg better to do. i google it. eheh

moon

The Moon is an interesting symbol that signifies feminine energy; it is associated with the irrational and the intuitive. The Moon affects the ocean tides, and it has been linked to madness. As a dream symbol is can represent all of these things and more. As always, pay attention to the details in the dream before making conclusions. The moon could represent romance and our earthly impulses and passions. It could reveal things about the nature of soul and the unconscious. The Moon can also reflect inner peace and feelings of serenity and security.

sun

The sun sustains all life on Earth. When you see it in your dreams, it suggests that you are being nurtured and sustained by your environment and your life choices. It could also represent a spiritual force or the light of God. Sunrise may indicate new beginnings and a new wave of energy while sunsets suggest a period of closure and completion. Sunlight in your dreams is never a negative symbol. Light always symbolises or indicates consciousness and may signify masculine energy. Its presence, even in the most disturbing dreams, has reassuring qualities. Old dream interpretation books say that sun shining on you is an omen of good fortune and good will.

dog

Dogs in dreams could symbolise a large variety of ideas and concepts, but mostly they are symbolic of the dreamer's defensive structure and may represent personal boundary issues. Carefully consider all of the details and the mood in your dream. First, if you have a dog, it may be natural to dream about him. We become emotionally attached to our dogs and we dream about them just as we dream about anything else that is important to us. Otherwise, dogs could symbolize loyalty and hard work. If someone calls you a dog, it is a negative reflection on your personality. If you are being treated like a dog, you are most likely being abused in some way. On the metaphysical level, dogs are considered to be the guardians of the underworld. Finally, dogs could represent the more basic or "animal" parts of our nature and some think that they specifically represent male energy.

positive man. (= yes. i am dammit hardworking. and someone is truly guiding me. i made mistake. said to be patient with life and everything will go smoothly.

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just now was super enthusiastic to meet suhai. but he was feeling low. =( hais.. then i walked to National Library. read borrowed. i don't wanna go home yet. called huda but =( then called faizul. yay. so i walked to paragon. hahaha. seow uh. ya pompuan gile. we talked alot. lepak. when he was working. i was tawafing paragon. haha. go in guess kid shop. haha. sial la.. expensive or what. =( yea. whatever. he sent me home. and i fucking miss suhai. =( love you

son-in-law

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the talking with my dad happened last monday when su sent me home. (= i went up. and just now then got to know what they talking about. haha. love you su

tmr gonna meet him. thurs too. (=

hey love.. hugs. i know you love mandy. kesian die. hais.

xoxo