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i need a job.

but i'm loving my life like this.

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19 Jun 2008 2:26am

she msged," U nvr wan 2 give in. U jus wana push!"

i was crying at that time so i was abit shocked that she msged me suddenly.. yeah.. hahs. i really don't know what she meant by that msg. so i replied her.. wrong send or something.. she said she got alot problems. yeah.. but she never said what it is.. hahas.. uh. nevermind.. we gonna meet soon babe.. aite.. (=

oh. mind went blank suddenly..

yeah i know

i love you.

xoxo

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hello su. (= i smile .. i would like to say i love you.

i woke up this morning thinking of what to do. . i smsed alot of people. my dad. my aunty. su. fee. actually the plan today is to find job with fee. . but upon at that time i really feel so low. it's like i really have no confidence in myself and i felt so down.. so i let out my feelings by crying.. and watched oprah. hahas. and i typed alot of smses and saved it in the save drafts. yeah. i know i suck. and i really need su badly. so, i met him. and we're like in the library now. hahas. he's nice and i love him very much. (= i feel so much better now.. and i'm gonna find job on thursday. (= if there's interesting job in the classified. if not then i don't know bcoz i'm thinking of going back to that amk job. yeah..

i went out with someone ytd. it was great. at first there was this mixed feelings bcoz it has been long. but it went good. we really talk about everything under one roof. and it's also weird that i call faruq, by Qiqi. yeah ...weird. and he kept speaking in english. and it's very weird. it has been long. people change slowly .. but so far i'm good. (= su keep me grounded to the earth. ahah.. thanks love. without you i'm lost.

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where are you now?
i know you're busy.
but i thought i'm your good friend.
guess i'm wrong.
good friend make some time to see each other right?
even a minute or so.
i miss you.
i really want to meet you.
it has been long.

i tried to talk to you.
but some how i just don't know what to talk about.
this is sad.
this is sad.

i miss you, so call friend.

yours truly

my sweet sexy love, masturah.

im so dead.

sorry mas. i really love you but i update your blog without your permission.

hello. my name is su. yea, im the guy that she's been talking abt on and on.. and if you have seen her recently, the guy that was holding her hands den slightly moves to the background coz u guys are talking and all.. yea thats me.

so, 13th june was my birthday. celebrated with my beloved childhood playmates.. and my future playmate, namely masturah.. hehehe.. we went to marina square.. then hanging out to our favourite hang out spot.. everything was ok.. quite fun.. had been a very long time not going out with the fellars.. there was a little drama though but not gonna talk abt it here.. stay cool man.
so, the plan was, me sending mas home.. take the last bus then hangout again with muthu, afiq and probably rizal and wan.. but i missed the last bus when i got to mas' place.. but to tell the truth, it wasnt all so unfortunate.. lets just say, that was one of those times where im pretty glad i couldnt go home and am ''stuck'' with mas.. hehe.. love you.. overnite at her place.. her parents were all cool with it.. and i was kinda uncomfortable in the foreign environment, so i asked mas to stay and probably sleep with me in the living room.. in other words, i was scared i would be up all night in the dark if i cant get to sleep.. hahaha..

so woke up arnd.. i really have forgotten eventhough it was just yesterday. and the best thing was, getting to see her beautiful face, which goes along with her just-out-of-the-bed hair was the first thing i opened my eyes and of course her sweet smile to greet me.. and not to forget her short-sharp cute rock voice., which im pretty sure if i remembered correctly, laughed at me. haha.. and it was also the first time i kissed my mum's hand.. i mean..ahem.. mas' mum's hand of course.. hehe.. eventhough we've met quite a number of times.. we hugged on the.. hmm it wasnt a sofa but its like a long chair with a backrest so its not a bench but its no a sofa coz there's no cushion and its all wooden.. so yea, that long i dont know what its called long chair. i think i got it in my living room though.. haha.. oh yea, we were hugging on that chair then her mum suddenly pop out then i kissed my mum's hand.. i mean mas' mum hands.. hahaha..

so i got tasted mas' lips. *hooray. early in the morning. we didnt got a chance to brush our teeth but we just start kissing.. i felt so... chinese. hahahahahah.. but seriously, i didnt mind at all.. it was quite good actually.. but i got confused when she stopped and said ''bau''. i didnt know whether she was asking me, or my mouth was smelly but all i know i nodded my head. then we stopped.. biggest mistake of my life.. ok maybe not the biggest but its quite big.. its not everyday i get to taste ''fresh'' lips. hehe..

ok. so my whole point of telling this long-winded story is that, when i was under her block walking to the bus stop, my eyes welled up in tears and just waiting for the force of gravity to make my tears rolled down my cheeks.. i realised how much i missed spending time with her like i used to.. not going hme at all.. breathing and sharing the cool morning breeze.. the moon is not seen anywhere, and the sun isnt up yet.. i think thats when masturah looks her best.. her make up would be gone, her hair would be not so flat.. and she would always cozying up with me.. and its not so bright and the lighting is perfect.. emphasize her fair skin beautifully.. and she's just this one big cute and sweet stuff thats just been squeezed into a beautiful, sexy body.

whatever it is, this entry is to show i ever loved a girl named masturah binte musrin deeply, sincerely.

oh love, my sweet sexy love named masturah, after reading this, please smile and tell me how you feel. love you.

yours forever,
su.
oxox

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i'm not working anymore.

&i'm with su now. (= we're at the library. hehe.. he said he love library so he could spent more time with his gf. hehe.. ok.. shuttup mas.

and his laughing hysterically in the library reading the perasaan comic uh. hahas.. funny huh.

i want to work. to have alot of cash in my purse. to treat su in whatever he wants. haaha. i'm good. i'm good. i want to go shopping with anywho who wanna go with me.. 1st thing up in my shopping list is bra. hahas.

xoxo
yours truly.

he said,"please don't go"

..and i replied no, i'm not going anywhere.. i love you.

i miss my bibik.. could she have lost my no.? =( we lost contact?. boohoohoo..

anyway, i'm not working. i'm not working. and he's not studying not studying.. okay.. i'm bored.

last 2 days. watched that stupid game.. so goddammit boring. some more 3-7.. woaH.. wasted.. we were like sweating like mad dog. ok i lied.. but i had a little bit of fun.. especially when su and rizal said buto everytime.. i guess hearing the word buto makes me happy. (= eheh..

yesterday, was really fun really.. after that cold war with su last2 nights.. i decided that i should surprise him.. and i don't know that he's thinking about surprising me too.. hahas.. i don't know why that i bought him a white rose. hehe.. and he bought me 2 summer cookies donuts. been craving for that since last2 weeks. aku tak bohong. yea.. i love him.

we had breakfast together just now.. wow.. full man... i can't even finish the burger. aiyo.. it's mcgriddles by the way.. that burger damn nice la.. ni che tau.. but i hate th egg and the cheese.. like i ask him can order just the bread ornot...... haha.. idiot.

and and this morning i received a miss call from my boss. bcoz i have not been coming to work for a really long time already.. without reason that is. and i smsed him that i will be coming to work next week bcoz i am holidaying. hahahs. holidaying in singapore huh.. ok la.. i am such a lazy pig.. i wanna stay home at all times seh.. be lazy . be a couch potato.. be very very fat and he will leave me.. hahahas.

hmm..

ok..

xoxo