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hello su. (= i smile .. i would like to say i love you.

i woke up this morning thinking of what to do. . i smsed alot of people. my dad. my aunty. su. fee. actually the plan today is to find job with fee. . but upon at that time i really feel so low. it's like i really have no confidence in myself and i felt so down.. so i let out my feelings by crying.. and watched oprah. hahas. and i typed alot of smses and saved it in the save drafts. yeah. i know i suck. and i really need su badly. so, i met him. and we're like in the library now. hahas. he's nice and i love him very much. (= i feel so much better now.. and i'm gonna find job on thursday. (= if there's interesting job in the classified. if not then i don't know bcoz i'm thinking of going back to that amk job. yeah..

i went out with someone ytd. it was great. at first there was this mixed feelings bcoz it has been long. but it went good. we really talk about everything under one roof. and it's also weird that i call faruq, by Qiqi. yeah ...weird. and he kept speaking in english. and it's very weird. it has been long. people change slowly .. but so far i'm good. (= su keep me grounded to the earth. ahah.. thanks love. without you i'm lost.

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where are you now?
i know you're busy.
but i thought i'm your good friend.
guess i'm wrong.
good friend make some time to see each other right?
even a minute or so.
i miss you.
i really want to meet you.
it has been long.

i tried to talk to you.
but some how i just don't know what to talk about.
this is sad.
this is sad.

i miss you, so call friend.

yours truly