suhairi is handsome and fat.

i was thinking about the title. and he force me!! haha.. to type that. haha.. and ugly at the same time.. i beg to differ. he's so handsome. =P

oh anyways.. i'm not gonna work at united square anymore.. i have been transferred to suntec with effect on 4th august. gahh.. at there got toys r us. i love toys r us. can see MR Big Eyes. ahah.. big boss that is. but i bet he won't walk pass the coldwear. hahas. mane2 aku pegi ade toys r us. oh. i'm gonna miss this girl name niki alot. ahah.. she so cute. read this niki. you are super cute. haha.. and wen hua. an every one la. (= but i guess suntec people will be fun too. (= must think positive man. (=

and.. i'm with mr handsome fat boy now. he's reading my diary. -_-

hmm.. i don't know if i should con't study or not.. coz hmm.. my plan is i have no plan. haha.. ya. to marry su. hahahaha..

xoxo

fat calling me fat

wah.. i feel so fat than the guy sia. serious. coz he said i got a tummy. haha. i don't know where is my rajiness gone. i always do sit ups before i sleep last time. but now.. i'm like too tired to do sia. coz of work. haha..

i'm now eating grilled chicken chop with rice and it's not nice and ex. and i regretted. ahha..and the rice has no moisture and i feel like puking now. boo..

tmr gonna take my long awaited tru pay. wah!! that time that i work there.. i was so super tired. so, i finish at 6am. so i thought i'm gonna get the cab soon. but the road is so deserted. and i was like still ok. then i just walk ard waiting for a taxi.. and then another 10mins.. it suddenly rain heavily. and i feel so miserable. but luckily there is su!!! he kept me company after that. i felt relieved at that time. (= i love you.

xoxo

it's awhile now

hey. i'm glad and proud coz we're already nine months. (= i love you very much. i enjoy every minute of my time with you dear. (= kisses and hugs. you're so warm and funny and cuddly. like your sis said. CC- cute and cuddly. let's go gym together. let's do things together. let's always watch movie and make out. hug me tight don't let me go. (=

i have been working hard. and i'm so tired. boo..

yay. can't wait to meet sery and falala.. sentosa sentosa falalalala

xoxo
ps. i love you more and more everyday. missing you.

shut up. and let me go

i just ate sugar roll and oreo donut for my dinner.and i feel so sleepy and tired now.. my shoulder hurts so much. why do i complain so much? i must be grateful man. oh. my prepaid is low and it sucks pretty much coz i really depend on my phone to contact my syg always. and it sucks that i can't contact him. and i feel so low low low low low. haha. and he's going to watch the dark knight with his friend. hmm.. the dark knight is so boring. hahas. kesian die kene tgk. ahahah.. and it got so many conspiracy and you will get bored watching it and your butt will hurt sitting too long. haha. stupid want to watch. ahaha..

last monday i went out with suhairi. ha. and it was superfun. i miss him so i met him again yesterday.. coz i finish work at 230pm. but he finish school at 6pm. i thought i wanna wait for him. hmm.. i was like.. fickle. but i really miss him.. so, i went toa payoh first.. shopping therapy alone. buy stuffs. and i decided that maybe i should meet him. hehe.. yea. i did.. and i bought him cupcakes. hehe. yea. thought of buying eclairs but no. i didn't. hehe.. so, yeah.. i met him at amk. while my journey there. i slept in the bus. super long ride. and my head tkleh diam so i knocked on the cermin. like several times lor. haha. kesian aku.. then today.. i wanted to wake up at 11am. but he smsed me in the morning.. to go eat with him.. yeah.. i'm getting bored.. BYE

i love you darl
xoxo

bad

i am feeling bad. really bad. boo me boo me boo me boo me. =(
i really want to cry now. because i couldn't tahan anymore. =( this morning tears rolling up when i am in the train and i don't know why. fcuk me.. why do i feel really low. i seriously need some friend to contact me back. like you said, you got my back. i am listening to bubbly.

i am such a sissy wussy pussy

argh. argh. argh. argh.

upset

i hate myself for doing this.
let's just say i love him. i love him very much. i think he's the one for me. like ya.
but these few days that stupid confuse feelings come again. and always left wondering. i kept thinking and thinking..and cried alot.. and i told myself that maybe i should understand more. ya. i am so selfish very selfish. i want him all by myself. i get jealous very easily. i am short tempered. i am so fickle. but i don't know. he try to change i know. i saw.. but i am so silly. and this feeling really sucks. i want to be with him.. i just feel that we are not the same anymore. why? hmm.. yeah.. i sucks that's why.

oh, i cant't think straight. i am not in the mood. but i am trying to smile . because i am working today. and tomorrow. i thought i could forget but this feeling really haunt me down. =(

i love you darl

hair

guys really hate people to touch their hair.. like seriously. coz they spent their lifetime doing their hair.. and one wrong move they will get irritated. yea.. met a few of them.. wait. i think all of my guyfriends really hate people commenting bad about their hair. haha.. like ranor.. i said.. wah your so big already.. yea.. he laughed it off.. but deep inside he would said then your hair macam babi. haha.. no. kidding.

i'm bored with my hair already. i would to change my hairstyle but i'm afraid that it won't look like nice on me. gahh!!! short hair no.. feel like cutting concave like that.. you know.. but keep my hair the same length because i want to have a digital perm babe. hahas. feminine ladylike like that.. but behaviour like pig. i know.. someone call me dumbledore and i hate him so much.. seriously so much.

yesterday, at work. ok la. having my dinner with biscuit only. i'm really broke. brankrupt. and i have to ask my dad for money always.. and kambing.. and su. and that really sucks alot. coz i am independent . i work for my own money.hais. i hate july. i really hate july. i wish i saved money last time. i regretted. i should have not spend money just like that. i learnt my lesson. hais.

xoxo
sincerely mas

different.

Write down the first thing/image that comes to your mind after every words in CAPS given.


SHIRT-lobang
HOLE- vagina
POWER- up
LEPAK- -ing
PILLOW- bed
POOL- swimming pool
CAKE- oreo cheesecake
DOOR- knob
CRUNCHY- crunchy
LOVE- you
ANIMAL- tiger
SMOKE- hot
FREE- you
EMO- you
GOD- you
POD- ipod
PUNKROCK- you
HELLO- goodbye
EYES- you
MOHAWK- me
STONE- you
MONSTER- monster you
DRAGON- haha
MOTORBIKES- hah fail
SUN- haha
V- virgin
FCUK- me
SYMPHONY- one
ZOMBIE- you
BROWN- shirt
BIMBO- you
ENORMOUS- stupid idiot
COLOURFUL- sweet rainbow
MUSCULAR- my sweet boyfriend
ENEMY- no you
SOLID- metal zip
ELMO- haha cookie monster
RABBIT- white
HOHOHO- how he laugh
FHM- raunchy
DANGEROUS- 98.7fm
DEVIL- me
CHAMPION- me
BOXING- punching
PIERCINGS- gangsta art
FRIENDSTER- merepek
DIE- you die you old barstard
GHOST- i'm not scared of you
HERO- heroin me
SIN- sex
JACK- i love jack.. who's jack?
KING- mun

a little bit shock

ya. a little bit.. hmm.. anyways, i'm at work now having my break.. and this guy suppose to work until 6pm but me and my boss persuaded and pscyho him to work until close. haha.. yea.. i got that manja factor right. haha.. and i did super disgusting thing just now.

oh yesterday, how sweet of him to meet me after work. (= ya. so sweet. meet me while having lunch. haha.. i feel bless. and i miss you already. we can't spend as much time as we used last time .. but i'll still love you. hey, we should just sit and stare only hor .. hugs hugs ..

xoxo
p.s i love to work.

sometimes

sometimes i'm shy.
sometimes i'm angry.
sometimes i'm caring but sometimes i just don't care at all.
sometimes i hate but usually i love.
sometimes i'm rocking but sometimes i just sucks.
sometimes i'm happy but hey i'm sad.
sometimes i made face and maybe it's real.
sometimes i'm depress but i laugh to see how stupid and silly i am.
sometimes i miss you well i feel we're distant.
sometimes i feel like dying but i don't wanna die just yet.

sometimes sometimes
i think thats me though.
truly masturah.

oxygen

oh wells.

i got a job. (=
hmm.. at least i'm working right now. been busy. will be missing you love.

i read something about break up yesterday forget from where.. it says that you have take exactly 3months to cure your broken heart. and at that point time you shoudln't think, chat about your ex at all.. you should just occupy your time with your friends or just take a new hobby. then if you fully recovered maybe you should just be friends with your ex. ya. ahahs.. or maybe not.

and so me?. when i broke up.. it;s like all over already. i never contact any of my ex.

well, i really love him. i miss you