why oh why??

this is killing me. i swear i gonna move to livejournal.. hahaha. or maybe not? see la next 3 days. (= see i am giving you chance blogspot. haha

it's human to feel upset when you expected for things to go your way but all gone bad huh.. but i guess hmm.. not to expect so much.

hmm.. what is serious relationship? hmm..

xoxo

NOBODY but you

i want nobody nobody but you, su. (=

so cool right the video. hehe.

well i had a bad day today. i cried coz of anger in the morning. like WTF. hais.but what to do. haiya. and i can't wait to shop on friday at cotton on on my dinner break. woohoo

xoxo

miss alot of miss

a sudden feeling of missing him too much now.. it has been hmm.. gonna be 2month.. haiya

and i have been a bad friend coz i don't have much time to spare with them. but i hope they would understand. =( and kambing got a fractured toes. will be 1 month recovery at home. why he also accident. and actually ytd i almost got into an accident also. you see life is too short and unpredictable.. damn.. SG Road is super dangerous. so, please ride safely. don't speed.

i miss su

wanna be with you

blogger is like what now.. coz i can't upload photos. if this happen again i think i will go to livejournal much more sophisticated. hahaha.

and tmr i will at United Square. (= heheheh

short short

been posting short short entries. my brain got a limited space.. alot of it was filled with suhairi and nenek K. haha. seriously so scary. and zura CB. haha.

today i went shopping!!!!!!!! hahas.

i bought a straw hat that suhairi wants badly. bloody nice uh at River Island. i like it so much. and i bought myself a tote bag for $5 only. hehe.. super cheap. i like very much.

he wanted to wear the collar shirt and the straw hat when he discharge. ehehe.. i hope i will be there to see him. (=

xoxo

woots

haha..

it was so funny to see su, the sister the brother planning for the surprise birthday for the another sister. haha.

hope it works. good luck. hehe

you my baby oohlala..

before we go steady..

that day was like celebrating my birthday on advanced. celebrated at west coast. it was so sweet of them lar.. that was 2years ago. su, sery and mun. hahas.. suhairi touched my butt and i touched his hips to play on the swings. and i cannot believe it that he told his fellas about that.. hahah. he like it very much. ahaha.. funny. i also like.

and we chatted about how he felt awkward to talk to me coz he don't know whether i like him or not.. and he don't know how to treat me as what. haha.. and i said you never asked me.. and he said he was shy..and asked me,"will you have make out with then?" haha.. but seriously i kissed him first. hahas.. see.. i love him more man.. hehe..

well.. miss him.

and kambing got into accident. but he didn't tell me. i feel so not important. hmph..

love su my baby oohlala

snoozeless

i can't sleep this days.
i need sleeping pills.

huda, give me your sleeping pills, please. hehe

useless

i already whined to sery and huda. do i feel better? yeah. much better.

i miss him.

meaningful

i thought i wanted to post something meaningful to suhairi. i always thought about it. like how to type it here. but i am not good in playing words and all. but i just want you to know that whatever it is. you are always in my heart, su. will always be. ok.

your flaw made it flawless.

i donno what it mean either. hahs

xoxo

sister

me:how come you have dimple?
adik:what is dimple?
me:you smile. i show you.
adik:oh. coz i fat.
me:then why iqa don't have?
adik:coz she's too fat.
me:hahahahaha!
adik:(turns to iqa)sorry! hahaha

SO BITCHY MY SISTER SO BITCHY!

robert

i like his eyes. ..

su said he wanted to read all my entries when he got home. haha. read la syg. keke

i had fun with su today. all alone with him except for the mother and brother visits. but it's ok. (= i love love him.

true love is about physical touch.

xoxo

private feelings

well i felt disconsolated everytime he said/did sad things towards me.

and now i am in a real great pressure. he wants me to be there when he got discharge. i don't really think i am close to his family. i am really bad at pleasing aunties and uncles. but he just don't understand. i sucks so much i hate it.

or i think i hate this like commitment or something that families have to be involve and all. maybe maybe in my heart i am just not ready. but i will always love him.

xoxo

lisa see

i understand how her book was the New York Bestseller.! i am reading this book. Peony in love. it's wah.. it brought me in tears. i understand how the girl feel. just like me minus the china dynasty part (hehe). the best i have ever read. (= it moved me real good.

& su was disappointed with my attitude. kekeke. i know i sucks

but you still love me
coz i enraptured your heart

love you
you are the best i have ever had

hehehe

meet you there

meet you there SU!

jealousy

i just realise my mobile could do a quick memo! ahha. and now my wallpaper is like su's sexy face and I HATE HER memo. haha.

i am feeling really tired now. hais.. i love su i love su i love su.

I WISH I HAVE A WHOLE ALONE TIME WITH SU!!!!! but that won't happen coz i guess he need other people too..

nononono don't phunk with my heart

1 more month to go. sery HUGHUG

again and again

today was so funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was alone then M called to check stock. so i did it. and suddenly U came inside. he asked alot of questions. and another C came inside. i was like haha. BUSY. and totally forgot about the phone call. i only realised it when N asked me why you put the phone like that. i was like OOOPS!!!!!!! we laughed out loud. haiya.. STM or what. luckily M is so got alot of patience. hehehe..

clumsy act

i spilled water on suhairi's face again. but this is so funny.. coz got this apek also laugh. wah.. where to get super clumsy girl like me. wah. i really hate my character. =( i must be careful.

don't be sorry

i am lucky to have suhairi. without him i will feel fucking lost i tell you. seriously i should have listen to him to not accept the transfer to IMM. =( he thought about everything but i am just stubborn.. haiya. i am so regretting my decision. i still love suntec. =( and hais. transportation is just so fcuking expensive la. =(

& i miss you CHEN shi ying. =( boobobooboboooobobobobobo
i love su.
so understanding

great day

i had so much fun with su today. (=

& i really don't know why that i bought seventeen mag. HAHAH.

xoxo

ribs

today is the FIRST time in my LIFE.
got to eat ribs at AMK 608. hahas. ya. aku slenge bachin. and it is su's fave that was what the sister told me. kekeke.

hmm.. seriously it shocked me that the sister said her friend started saving money at the age of 21 to get married at 27. $1.6 per mth. wahh.. seriously i want to start saving too. hehehe.. since su is not working. and that was why the sister said many girls marry old men. hmm.. ok i thought.

anyway, i really need to stop spending money. tell me who spend $500 in just 1 week? ME. half of my pay. i tell you.

regret not studying really well. full of regrets. =( i guess i need a mentor who can lead me to somewhere. but i don't have any.

xoxo

miss su alot.

no handlebar

sometimes su said the most sweetest thing girl(I) wanna hear. hehe

"i miss u on my chest gazing at the beautiful dark sky decorated with alot of stars at lower pierce reservoir while playing old slow romantic songs. Love you."

hugs

& i love to do things on my own. seriously. shop alone. walk alone. even watch movie alone. hahas. if i am a housewife confirm tk leh ddk rumah diam. hahas.

today went home at 1pm. it was raining so i took cab. lazy to walk to the train. so far. & i don't want to get wet.i can even take the shuttle bus but someone said i looked like a nurse today so i felt really insecure with myself and i went home and get changed. haha. told that to su. jokingly saying i can be your personal nurse hehe.

went to the library. borrowed books. haha. borrowed calvin and hobbed and x-men. but when i showed it to him to surprise him. he said he already read it. and i was like =O hahaha. k la. nevermind.

then i thought wanna meet shi ying miss her. but she replied my msgs late. so i msged faizul but too bad it rained really heavily. then i walked alone senyum sendiri to plaza sing. hahahahaha. LONER

pokerface.

seriously working with chinese i feel hmm.. alienated. but as time pass by and yeah... working with them 5days and a half for 1year. yea.. i learnt a bit of it. i am not that fluent but at least i know. =) i like the feeling of it. like when they are talking and forgot about me. i will sometimes ehem. KPO. hahas. it was fun asking questions and all.

and ytd my in-charge said. oh i just moved to IMM. before that it was all chinese. yea.. so yesterday she said good eh you come her. i asked why. and she answered coz i can catch up with my english. everytime talked mandarin.i feel happy. (=

and just now someone got really irritated coz i was too hardworking. first time some one got irritated by it. hahaha. so funny. it was fun at work.

i adapt fast to environment. (=

tmr will be meeting su. (I CHOSE THE WORD MEETING INSTEAD OF VISITING. COZ I AM IN DENIAL. HAHA ) happy. love him to death. and he invite me to go pray with him on fasting month. seriously i was abit ashame of myself coz i don't practice it. shame on my self. haiya. and he will be fully heal on the fasting month i think. that was what he said. very long. but we just got to be strong you know. i can;t wait to do alot of stuffs with him. going out, watching movie, play bowling, swimming.. everytime i think about his finger intertwine with mine. it made me sad. hais. it made him sad too. i miss him

xoxo
GET WELL SOON!!!

Imm

transportation money to IMM is unbelievable 4bucks a day. WTF you want from me. hahaahs.

this is so unfair. fucking unfair. i hate it. you stupid bitch must have slept with him. fuck you. ahahs.

anw, while crossing the road. got 2 cute dogs beside me with the owners la. then this act cute girl.wa liao.. bueh tahan uh. stick out her tongue and do stg on her nose. like WTF. act cute nak mampos. like as if the dog is like looking at her. hahaha. Syok Sendiri.

& today i went shopping and bought stg for su. hehe. hope he like it. coz i love it.

xoxo
su said lets elope.

sad

i cannot control my emotions really well. i accidently spilled the water on his shirt. and he got really mad and scolded me for being clumsy. it wasn't on purpose seriously. ='( i feel so useless at that time. i was bloody sad seriously i cried not in front of him. my face hide under his armpit. i think that is my fave place to hide. hahas. i really feel sad smpi terbwk2 otw home. imagine tears rolling down your cheeks while you are walking to the bus stop. wah.. embarrasing seh. haiya.



then i just need a hug. and called huda. she really into her hair now. hahas. tk leh tahan sia huda. hahas. yeayea she so funny. when i was in tears. she was like far away from me and like talking in loud voice don't cry. tkmo don't cry. ahah. that made me laugh serious shit. hahas.



anyway, i really miss su. hais. how? i am not that strong enough.

and me being a super klutz hais.. so useless

squeezed

i wish when su got well. he will fetch me if i do afternoon shift. coz JURONG EAST is fucking scary la the place. infested by hmm.. i don't like. so scary so dark the place to walk to the train. i hate west area. i hate it so much. but what to do. =(

and the WTF thing was. =( i got squeezed by this fat guy & a bangla that donno how to sit. i felt so miserable just now. and su said these people cannot trust close your cleavage. hahah. seriously i was hugging myself all the way. =( so sad

i miss su alot.